Missing my ex...
Hi I'm a female and 22 years old. I haven't written in my livejournal in a while but I know I really need advice this time. I was going out with this guy for like 2 months. Our relationship started out like a dream. We were so happy and although we weren't together for a long time things were almost perfect. Until, one day we started fighting a lot and it all fell apart when his ex sent me an email he wrote to her saying how much he loved her and how much he couldn't stand me anymore. I confronted him and he said he wrote it out of anger cuz we got in a stupid fight earlier that day. I actually let it go but after that I couldn't trust him anymore and things were just, from bad to worse. I broke up with him recently and at first I felt better and relieved I could move on..but now I miss him so much and I want to be with him again but he won't even talk to me. He treated me like crap. Made me feel like everything was my fault, even the email was somehow my fault. Why can't I let him go? Is it because of the good memories we had? I'm so upset and I don't know why or how I can get over him. I know it was the right thing to do to walk away from him, and break up and end it while it was still early in the relationship but why do I actually want to be with him again and be treated that way?