Muddled
So.. My boyfriend of seven months dumped me the other day.
It wasn't a bad breakup or anything- He really was never ready for a relationship as it was, but I'm worried. It seems as though I put way too much thought into a relationship that wasn't there.
And now, at school, I get so ANGRY around him! Whenever he says anything to anyone, whenever he says anything to me, whenever I look at him and he doesn't look back. And I know it's totally stupid that I'm this angry, but... I try to stop, and there's hardly anything I can do. I try to remember that we are friends, and being friends is more important in the long run, but maybe this breakup was just my fault.
Overall, I'm angry because he isn't affected at all from the breakup. If anything, he's even happier, and he isn't too uncomfortable about sharing this fact around me.
That bothers me, quite a lot.
And I don't know what to do. I feel like I've lost my only person, or lost something that took me forever to build. It's really disheartening to be sitting next to him in class and just know that I can't be with him. He didn't realize how happy he made me. I tried telling him, but it's not like you can really convince someone out of a decision like that.
And I want to ask for advice, but everything seems so muddled up right now. Plus, home doesn't make it much better, since there's been so much fighting and annoyance with everyone in the house, when people are actually home. Usually I'm home alone, and I just KNOW that makes things 100x worse!
So.. I don't really know how to ask for advice. And I don't know what advice I need.
Maybe I just needed the rant...
It wasn't a bad breakup or anything- He really was never ready for a relationship as it was, but I'm worried. It seems as though I put way too much thought into a relationship that wasn't there.
And now, at school, I get so ANGRY around him! Whenever he says anything to anyone, whenever he says anything to me, whenever I look at him and he doesn't look back. And I know it's totally stupid that I'm this angry, but... I try to stop, and there's hardly anything I can do. I try to remember that we are friends, and being friends is more important in the long run, but maybe this breakup was just my fault.
Overall, I'm angry because he isn't affected at all from the breakup. If anything, he's even happier, and he isn't too uncomfortable about sharing this fact around me.
That bothers me, quite a lot.
And I don't know what to do. I feel like I've lost my only person, or lost something that took me forever to build. It's really disheartening to be sitting next to him in class and just know that I can't be with him. He didn't realize how happy he made me. I tried telling him, but it's not like you can really convince someone out of a decision like that.
And I want to ask for advice, but everything seems so muddled up right now. Plus, home doesn't make it much better, since there's been so much fighting and annoyance with everyone in the house, when people are actually home. Usually I'm home alone, and I just KNOW that makes things 100x worse!
So.. I don't really know how to ask for advice. And I don't know what advice I need.
Maybe I just needed the rant...