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um so...i really need some advice :/
i really like my bf...but it doesn't feel right with him :/
with my ex, it was perfect, i loved him so much, i still love him, but we had our plan and i would see our future all painted out for us, it was so perfect, i don't see any of that with my bf :/ i miss him and i really like him and care about him, but i don't have that shear ache i had with my ex when i sit on the other side of the room to do something (like work at a desk) or the tears i have every time i wake up it isn't because i'm not waking up next to my bf, they are because i'm not waking up next to my ex. my bf doesn't make me smile, just by being there. every time i see him i'm not secretly wishing he would propose because i know for a fact that is what i want, that he is what i want, that he could make me so ecstatic for the rest of our lives. i don't cry just because my bf isn't hugging me, i don't suddenly feel hole and like nothing matters every time i see him.
i had all of that with my ex :(
oh yeah, my ex and my sister were best friends, that's how i met him so they went out drinking one night and went back to my sisters flat and they kissed, i'm not completely sure what else happened, but it went further than that because they passed out on my sisters bed...he was dreaming about me and my sister was dreaming about her bf so you can imagine what happened...i broke up with him and he said things about my sister so i don't talk to him anymore, even though it actually kills me
i really don't know what to do :/ i really don't want to hurt my bf but i think its wrong to be going out with him while i love someone else so much :/
i really like my bf...but it doesn't feel right with him :/
with my ex, it was perfect, i loved him so much, i still love him, but we had our plan and i would see our future all painted out for us, it was so perfect, i don't see any of that with my bf :/ i miss him and i really like him and care about him, but i don't have that shear ache i had with my ex when i sit on the other side of the room to do something (like work at a desk) or the tears i have every time i wake up it isn't because i'm not waking up next to my bf, they are because i'm not waking up next to my ex. my bf doesn't make me smile, just by being there. every time i see him i'm not secretly wishing he would propose because i know for a fact that is what i want, that he is what i want, that he could make me so ecstatic for the rest of our lives. i don't cry just because my bf isn't hugging me, i don't suddenly feel hole and like nothing matters every time i see him.
i had all of that with my ex :(
oh yeah, my ex and my sister were best friends, that's how i met him so they went out drinking one night and went back to my sisters flat and they kissed, i'm not completely sure what else happened, but it went further than that because they passed out on my sisters bed...he was dreaming about me and my sister was dreaming about her bf so you can imagine what happened...i broke up with him and he said things about my sister so i don't talk to him anymore, even though it actually kills me
i really don't know what to do :/ i really don't want to hurt my bf but i think its wrong to be going out with him while i love someone else so much :/