Woman, 24, Killed by crazy mofo diet
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Is it still only Day Two?!?! What...
All I could think about and talk about today was food. Seriously. As I stumbled around the store trying to work. I felt like my body was eating itself. I still do, sitting here. My tummy is angry. My body is angry. Cold sweats.
I just fantasized about mini chocolate brownies and ice cream all night. Ow, it hurts to think about. I almost cried when I went to work and there was a chocolate chip cookie sitting there to be eatten.
Looking at the vegetables, cucumbers, lettuce, whatever, made me actually want to vomit. What have I done?
I have come to a new conclusion. I am being tamed, just as a tiger would. My fungus is not my enemy. Maybe I need to do a little work to keep it under control. But when I try to hurt it, it just hurts me back. We have a mutualistic relationship, my fungus and I - if I can keep it controlled. My throat is much less gross today actually.
So what I am trying to say is I caved. I bought a loaf of sweet sweet beautiful bread and some hamburger buns and some cheese. I am going to stick to this as best I can still. But cold turkey is way WAY WAY too much. So I am going to eat hamburgers, without tomato ketchup, but with tomato slices, and with non-aged non-processed cheese. And I am going to eat sandwiches with sodium-free margarine and caribbean chicken slices. And hopefully I won't feel like I am about to collapse any minute anymore, and will be able to function like a human being again. I just wanted to say I was sick and go home so badly tonight. By the end I had sorta a little energy back. I think my body is using my bones for energy now though. I have absolutely no energy stores in this body.
But I didn't cave and get anything with sugar in it (besides the bread) so yay still.. right? I was SERIOUSLY going to buy mini brownies and 1L of ice cream and eat allll of it when I got home. I'm so responsible.
Tomorrow is the big gay-hate-festival on parliament hill. There's a lot of people in town for it. I was picking out some of the people shopping tonight as obviously in town to hate gay people en masse. I wanted to hit on this one family's 2 daughters just because.
Hamburger time...
Is it still only Day Two?!?! What...
All I could think about and talk about today was food. Seriously. As I stumbled around the store trying to work. I felt like my body was eating itself. I still do, sitting here. My tummy is angry. My body is angry. Cold sweats.
I just fantasized about mini chocolate brownies and ice cream all night. Ow, it hurts to think about. I almost cried when I went to work and there was a chocolate chip cookie sitting there to be eatten.
Looking at the vegetables, cucumbers, lettuce, whatever, made me actually want to vomit. What have I done?
I have come to a new conclusion. I am being tamed, just as a tiger would. My fungus is not my enemy. Maybe I need to do a little work to keep it under control. But when I try to hurt it, it just hurts me back. We have a mutualistic relationship, my fungus and I - if I can keep it controlled. My throat is much less gross today actually.
So what I am trying to say is I caved. I bought a loaf of sweet sweet beautiful bread and some hamburger buns and some cheese. I am going to stick to this as best I can still. But cold turkey is way WAY WAY too much. So I am going to eat hamburgers, without tomato ketchup, but with tomato slices, and with non-aged non-processed cheese. And I am going to eat sandwiches with sodium-free margarine and caribbean chicken slices. And hopefully I won't feel like I am about to collapse any minute anymore, and will be able to function like a human being again. I just wanted to say I was sick and go home so badly tonight. By the end I had sorta a little energy back. I think my body is using my bones for energy now though. I have absolutely no energy stores in this body.
But I didn't cave and get anything with sugar in it (besides the bread) so yay still.. right? I was SERIOUSLY going to buy mini brownies and 1L of ice cream and eat allll of it when I got home. I'm so responsible.
Tomorrow is the big gay-hate-festival on parliament hill. There's a lot of people in town for it. I was picking out some of the people shopping tonight as obviously in town to hate gay people en masse. I wanted to hit on this one family's 2 daughters just because.
Hamburger time...