Out Of Touch
The past couple of years have gone by in a flash. I can't say whether or not I've enjoyed them for the simple fact that I don't even feel like I've been living them. I've been a recluse, rarely ever going to a social gathering with my friends. I don't want to feel so out of touch. I know I've been busy with my education/work, but I've just been lying to myself. Education/work isn't good enough of an excuse to turn down my friends/not be social with them. I want to go out more. I'm living under a proverbial rock and I hate it. For those of you that know me, you know damn well I'm moreso than not anti-social.
From what I hear from others on those rare ocassions I'm out with friends, so much happens I've no clue as to what's going on and I feel like a burden asking "Who? What? Where? When? How?". The feeling of being left out is horrible. From those I care about most, they tell me it's better to be left out. Though part of that may be true, its even worse to not know what's going on with those you care about. In other news, there's a possibility I'm actually suffering from depression. I've to look at the symptons and whatnot but if I do suffer from it, that'll explain a lot.
From what I hear from others on those rare ocassions I'm out with friends, so much happens I've no clue as to what's going on and I feel like a burden asking "Who? What? Where? When? How?". The feeling of being left out is horrible. From those I care about most, they tell me it's better to be left out. Though part of that may be true, its even worse to not know what's going on with those you care about. In other news, there's a possibility I'm actually suffering from depression. I've to look at the symptons and whatnot but if I do suffer from it, that'll explain a lot.