Out of the loop?
I'm doing research with a group of people and it seems like every week at our research meeting I'm out of the loop on something. Like, I got my samples in the mail and someone moved them to the lab and no one told me but then everyone was upset at me when I didn't know. I was supposed to go to another school equipped to do a particular analytical ( Read more... )
There's only the 4 of us and our advisor. The two graduate students are very... self righteous. They have impeccable manners but thats part of the problem, it's like they're looking down their noses at us lowly undergraduates but they're too polite to come out with it. It's all in their body language and nonverbal cues and such. The other undergrad is not very reliable. I feel like I'm making excuses now but I don't mean to. Just explaining why I'm so shy about confronting them. I've thought about talking to my advisor about it but I'm afraid that will come off as petty and immature (like I'm tattling instead of dealing with the situation). I used to feel like I was part of the group and now they are all so unapproachable... The worst part is, they all have my email and at least 2 of them have my phone number, they all know my boyfriend because he's also a geology major so he's always hanging around with us. They could have mentioned it to him, or the secretary (it's a very small department, she runs basically everything including taking messages for people) or our advisor if not me..
I've written letters several times but I never end up sending them because no matter how calm I start out, by the end I'm furious and super unprofessional.. I'm afraid that will happen if I try to talk to them in person too. I have a counselor though, I'm going to see if he can help me figure out how to deal with these angry emotions long enough to get the message out. I've never had such a hard time simmering down before. Speaking of simmering down, I should pro'lly go to bed now. I have a test in the morning and I might get riled up again if I keep thinking about this.
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I'm really chatty/rambly tonight xP
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