no.
it's been a long time...
reminds me of "it's been a bad day. such a bad day" - soco. haha
anyway just wanted to lay this down
i was on a car trip with my best friend and another friend.
my best friend was asleep and the other friend and i got to talking about my friend that passed away. it was kind of all brought about because i was seeing this boy i hadn't seen in five years. the same year my friend passed away. we were talking about my friend and how i loved him and how he's gone forever now.
she asked me simply "you still think it's out there though don't you?"
i paused for a moment and briefly said "no"
a lot of people don't understand my reasoning for feeling this way even though i've lost the one i love. they feel that i am young and i need to put myself out there, it will be out there.
i just don't feel this way.
i don't even wish that i did feel this way.
so she asked me again, just in a different arrangement of words.
i still said no.
it's been five years, or it will be by the end of next month.
i am not making ground. but i dont want to either.
i am still as lost but found as i was then.
but i'm okay.
haha this reminds me of "i'm not okay, i'm not o fucking k." - my chemical romance. hahaha
love (or whatever that means haha),
psc
reminds me of "it's been a bad day. such a bad day" - soco. haha
anyway just wanted to lay this down
i was on a car trip with my best friend and another friend.
my best friend was asleep and the other friend and i got to talking about my friend that passed away. it was kind of all brought about because i was seeing this boy i hadn't seen in five years. the same year my friend passed away. we were talking about my friend and how i loved him and how he's gone forever now.
she asked me simply "you still think it's out there though don't you?"
i paused for a moment and briefly said "no"
a lot of people don't understand my reasoning for feeling this way even though i've lost the one i love. they feel that i am young and i need to put myself out there, it will be out there.
i just don't feel this way.
i don't even wish that i did feel this way.
so she asked me again, just in a different arrangement of words.
i still said no.
it's been five years, or it will be by the end of next month.
i am not making ground. but i dont want to either.
i am still as lost but found as i was then.
but i'm okay.
haha this reminds me of "i'm not okay, i'm not o fucking k." - my chemical romance. hahaha
love (or whatever that means haha),
psc