friends
Caitlin made me want to write this.
So lately I've felt like I have nothing to say to anyone. Nothing truly to talk about. I don't know if it's because of the 'sub-groups' in our group of friends (c'mon, you know they're there. It's normal.) but I don't know what to say to who. And who are my real friends. I mean, you're all my 'real' friends (definitely not imaginary!) but I mean who considers me closer to them than others. I have no idea. I like how we're all polite and friendly with everyone...but sometimes I wish I knew who was pretending. Whether pretending to be my friend or somebody else's; pretending at all. I don't know...I think it would make everyone feel more approachable. I'd know that they actually give a damn about what I say? I want to know where I stand with people, basically. There's a lot of you I wish I were closer to but I don't know how since I have no idea of what your take on our friendship is. Do you hate me? I don't know! I'm not saying that I feel like any of you hate me or anything...it's more like I'm confused as to who is really friends with who. The only thing that sucks with all this (the ceasing of pretending to like tht people you don't) is the drama it creates. Which I hate. So having said all this I don't even know what the solution is. But yeah...just some thoughts.
bye friends!
So lately I've felt like I have nothing to say to anyone. Nothing truly to talk about. I don't know if it's because of the 'sub-groups' in our group of friends (c'mon, you know they're there. It's normal.) but I don't know what to say to who. And who are my real friends. I mean, you're all my 'real' friends (definitely not imaginary!) but I mean who considers me closer to them than others. I have no idea. I like how we're all polite and friendly with everyone...but sometimes I wish I knew who was pretending. Whether pretending to be my friend or somebody else's; pretending at all. I don't know...I think it would make everyone feel more approachable. I'd know that they actually give a damn about what I say? I want to know where I stand with people, basically. There's a lot of you I wish I were closer to but I don't know how since I have no idea of what your take on our friendship is. Do you hate me? I don't know! I'm not saying that I feel like any of you hate me or anything...it's more like I'm confused as to who is really friends with who. The only thing that sucks with all this (the ceasing of pretending to like tht people you don't) is the drama it creates. Which I hate. So having said all this I don't even know what the solution is. But yeah...just some thoughts.
bye friends!