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I have this new weird habit that actually isn't really weird, but it's new and very strong.
Whenever I get sick of this town, or people, or not being wanted, I just...leave. I drive myself to Alewife, get on a train, and end up in Harvard Square drinking something delicious (iced chocolate or mango lassie) listening to street performers.
I find it weird that the urge I have to leave the town is SO STRONG. Like I feel like I'm suffocating and if I don't get out in a matter of minutes, I will drown in it. Like I will drown in the unreturned phone calls and loneliness.
Whenever I walk out from the T I just take a REALLY deep breath in and feel amazing. I like being in the city by myself, breathing city air, being anonymous, just being.
This is not good though. It's running away from what's wrong.
Whenever I get sick of this town, or people, or not being wanted, I just...leave. I drive myself to Alewife, get on a train, and end up in Harvard Square drinking something delicious (iced chocolate or mango lassie) listening to street performers.
I find it weird that the urge I have to leave the town is SO STRONG. Like I feel like I'm suffocating and if I don't get out in a matter of minutes, I will drown in it. Like I will drown in the unreturned phone calls and loneliness.
Whenever I walk out from the T I just take a REALLY deep breath in and feel amazing. I like being in the city by myself, breathing city air, being anonymous, just being.
This is not good though. It's running away from what's wrong.