deliberate practice
i've been thinking a lot about talent lately. and how it relates to skills. and that book martin gave me, on being certain. or at least, that book i swiped from martin. on being certain.
anyways.
talent. basically just the connections between neurons you have established when you start doing something. your brain, right? it's just your brain. skills are built. making new neural connections. changing them, strengthening existing ones. who gives a shit about talent. i can build skills with deliberate practice. i have.
i'm trying to train the new people at work on some of my projects. i show them the angle to hold the thumb, and how to move the hand. how many times to touch the dough. decrease the number of times you move your hands if you can. don't measure that ingredient, just estimate it. stir with this whisk, it takes half the time. use your hand, it's faster than a spoon.
i know my emotional intelligence is low. and that's something important when being a teacher. maybe it's why i failed at connecting with some of my students as a ta. maybe it explains some past failed relationships. i'm trying to acquire the skills of emotional intelligence, but i feel like i have no one to teach me sometimes. my gut reaction is to ignore my assumptions about the behavior of others because my past experience says my assumptions are usually incorrect. but i think people are trying to reach me with behavior rather than words. and that's ok. it's human. but how do i learn that?
i fear change. i feel sadness for lost old friendships. changed ones. a weird, grasping feeling. i'm trying to hold on to something in some of them, trying to leave bread crumbs without being clingy. some things are over. that's hard to accept. some things are fluid and unknown and i just kind of keep it that way, for fear of change. or actually knowing.
some days are diamonds some days are rocks some doors are open some roads are blocked.
i can't hold out forever even walls fall down.
anyways.
talent. basically just the connections between neurons you have established when you start doing something. your brain, right? it's just your brain. skills are built. making new neural connections. changing them, strengthening existing ones. who gives a shit about talent. i can build skills with deliberate practice. i have.
i'm trying to train the new people at work on some of my projects. i show them the angle to hold the thumb, and how to move the hand. how many times to touch the dough. decrease the number of times you move your hands if you can. don't measure that ingredient, just estimate it. stir with this whisk, it takes half the time. use your hand, it's faster than a spoon.
i know my emotional intelligence is low. and that's something important when being a teacher. maybe it's why i failed at connecting with some of my students as a ta. maybe it explains some past failed relationships. i'm trying to acquire the skills of emotional intelligence, but i feel like i have no one to teach me sometimes. my gut reaction is to ignore my assumptions about the behavior of others because my past experience says my assumptions are usually incorrect. but i think people are trying to reach me with behavior rather than words. and that's ok. it's human. but how do i learn that?
i fear change. i feel sadness for lost old friendships. changed ones. a weird, grasping feeling. i'm trying to hold on to something in some of them, trying to leave bread crumbs without being clingy. some things are over. that's hard to accept. some things are fluid and unknown and i just kind of keep it that way, for fear of change. or actually knowing.
some days are diamonds some days are rocks some doors are open some roads are blocked.
i can't hold out forever even walls fall down.