The past is catching up
So the local carnival season is approaching. Carnivals have always been fun and last year was no different. Unfortunately after the carnival was over, the trouble began. I had a stupid fling with a carnie and with the reputation of a carnie, I thought the fling would end when the rides and food carts were packed up. Being a girl, he thought that I would be interested in a more long term relationship. We were both driven by the stereotypes we had for each other. I started getting phone calls from him on the day he left and instead of being mature, I just ignored them and didn't answer the phone. This wasn't hard because my cellphone was broken and I had three jobs (two part time and one full time) which kept me from ever being at home. Finally after a month of avoidance I answered one of his calls and told him that I wasn't interested in a relationship, he got pissed off saying that I used him and hung up on me and we haven't spoken since. Now back to the present. Carnival season is here and as long as he is still a carnie, he will be here as well. I work as a front desk clerk in the hotel which charitably hosts all the carnies which makes it near impossible for me to avoid him. Now one of my favorite times of the year is ruined and I can only hope that we can be civilized and put up with each other for the short time he is here. Grrrr!!! Actually I'm going out of my mind with guilt. I feel bad for not making myself clear to him earlier and I feel bad that I hurt him. I really hope that we both don't make the same mistakes this year.