Excited? Not so much.

[adrienne_j]

One of the common questions I get is the 'are you excited?' one. Obviously meaning, am I excited about the baby. And I smile and say yes, of course, but I realize as I'm saying it that... I don't know if 'excited' is the word I would use. I don't think I'm excited about this in classic definition of the word. I'm not excited about being pregnant, I'm not excited about labour nor am I excited about the whole baby stage again. And yes, I know that all probably sounds horrible... but no, I don't think I'm excited per say. I think the closest to excited I am is that I'm excited for Graig. He's new to all this and he is excited and I appreciate that and I'm happy about it and so I'm excited on his behalf more than anything.

I think is what I'm actually feeling is that I'm looking forward. I'm looking forward to her being here and I'm looking forward to meeting her and I'm looking forward to Jet having a sister and I'm looking forward to Graig becoming a father and to our raising her together.

So no, I'm not excited, but there's some definite anticipation. Or something along those lines :)