why didn't i listen???
so, well that's what i get for being so hard headed! why didn't i ever let go of that stupid feeling i felt towards her! i'm so stupid and now i lost everything because of it. i think i lost him forever now. i am so heart broken and there is nothing i can do. i mean this time we didn't even talk about it, we didn't argue or anything it just happened. i guess he finally got tired of all my shit. well he always said it was stupid, but for me it wasn't. urgh! why did we have to go to wal-mart? everything was going perfectly fine. i mean she is about to be gone for a long time and i was just waiting for that moment to come so that i would actually be fine. well i guess this was gonna come soon. i'm so mad at myself for letting that get to me all the time. i haven't talked to him in three days and i feel so empty. it sucks to know that i lost the person that i'm in love with.