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I'm miserable.
I'm going through that rediculous need-to-be-the-center-of-attention trip that i usually go through a few times a year. I mean im pretty selfish and rediculous most of the time but there are a few weeks peppered in there that stand out. A friend of mind is stupidly head over heels for another friend of mine and i don't like it. I don't know why. I just don't. Half of me wants to get in the way and ruin everything. The other half is rooting for them because i honestly do want him to be happy. I think if everything were working out in other aspects of my life it would be much easier to stop being such a brat. I want to be in school. I want to stop getting sick all the time. I want a new job that I'll actually enjoy. Being grossed out by your creepy boss then being in the spotlight for calling him out on it isn't really my idea of a great working environment. Especially since the only reason I started that stupid job in the first place was because i thought it would be fun to work with mike. Now we wouldn't even have any shifts together. I'm pretty much bored and annoyed with everything. I'm counting the days until I go back to school, and counting down the sessions before I begin to feel sane again.
I miss kait.
I miss how things used to be. I miss being so happy that I couldn't sit still. It's all calmed down now. It's the most terrible sort of calm.
I'm going through that rediculous need-to-be-the-center-of-attention trip that i usually go through a few times a year. I mean im pretty selfish and rediculous most of the time but there are a few weeks peppered in there that stand out. A friend of mind is stupidly head over heels for another friend of mine and i don't like it. I don't know why. I just don't. Half of me wants to get in the way and ruin everything. The other half is rooting for them because i honestly do want him to be happy. I think if everything were working out in other aspects of my life it would be much easier to stop being such a brat. I want to be in school. I want to stop getting sick all the time. I want a new job that I'll actually enjoy. Being grossed out by your creepy boss then being in the spotlight for calling him out on it isn't really my idea of a great working environment. Especially since the only reason I started that stupid job in the first place was because i thought it would be fun to work with mike. Now we wouldn't even have any shifts together. I'm pretty much bored and annoyed with everything. I'm counting the days until I go back to school, and counting down the sessions before I begin to feel sane again.
I miss kait.
I miss how things used to be. I miss being so happy that I couldn't sit still. It's all calmed down now. It's the most terrible sort of calm.