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-5- [accidental voice] backdated to the middle of the night

Sep 18, 2011 21:32

[It's the middle of the night, barely a day after everyone's powers came back to normal. Everything should be okay now.

Everything...

The silence of this night has been suddenly interrupted by a soft, barely audible sound. A sound of someone crying.

Everything should be okay now, so why is he crying? What happened?]

...W-why...

[his voice is ( Read more... )

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[VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 06:01:31 UTC

[This response is slightly delayed because Allen was wavering between the video and audio buttons. He eventually goes for audio. While seeing a familiar face could help, he doesn't know Ruca that well, and people don't always like to be seen (even by friends) when they're in a state.]

[ tapping on his PDA to get the other boy's attention before he speaks up, so as not to startle him ] Ruca? [ He sounds oddly alert given the hour of the night. ] What's going on? Is there something I can help with?

[VOICE] adreamminealone September 19 2011, 07:40:53 UTC

[Ruca hesitates for a while, before he answers.]

N-no... I'm fine. [but he doesn't sound fine at all.] I-it was just another... bad dream. [It wasn't. It wasn't only a dream.] I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to wake anyone up...

1/2 [VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 08:47:48 UTC

It's alright, I was already awake. Might as well make it count, right?

[Scraping sound of a chair being drawn out. Sounds like someone's settling in for the long haul.]

2/2 [VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 08:48:17 UTC

Is this the same-[ 'memory?' ]-dream that was troubling you a while ago?

[VOICE] adreamminealone September 19 2011, 08:58:17 UTC

[there's another moment of silence, then a sigh and a short, barely audible reply:]

...Yeah.

[VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 11:32:14 UTC

None of the suggestions helped, then?

[VOICE] adreamminealone September 19 2011, 14:30:57 UTC

That's... right. But I can't say I'm surprised... [he should have already know nothing and no one can help him...]

[VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 15:19:49 UTC

[There are a few ways Allen can interpret that. He settles on voicing the one that sounds least invasive.]

Do you mean you have already tried them before?

[The 'or...?' remains unsaid but implied.]

[VOICE] adreamminealone September 19 2011, 15:31:41 UTC

...No... I haven't.

["it's just those aren't normal dreams". But he can't say that. Not now, anyway.]

[VOICE] tothelastbreath September 19 2011, 15:37:05 UTC

What do you mean then, if I may ask?

[It's... Kinder this way. No guesses demanding a yes or no, just an offer to listen to whatever Ruca feels comfortable sharing.]

[VOICE] adreamminealone September 19 2011, 15:52:28 UTC

[another long pause.

He's hesitating, if he should say something, or maybe he shouldn't say anything and just pretend it's all fine and there's no problem at all.]

I just mean... that nothing can help me... [he pauses.] No one can help me... those dreams I have are-- [he shakes his head, but it's not like Allen can even see that.] No, never mind.

[VOICE] tothelastbreath September 20 2011, 05:09:30 UTC

This can't go on, though. Pardon me for being forward about this, but you sound like you know what's causing them. Ah, you don't have to tell me anything if you'd rather not, but perhaps talking to someone - anyone - about it would help, even a little.

[It's a memory, right? Perhaps dealing with it head-on is the way to go.]

[VOICE; filtered] adreamminealone September 20 2011, 07:24:15 UTC

No... I don't think so.

[there's a long sigh on his end. No one could possibly understand this, because no one here was like him. He was pretty much alone with his repeating nightmares.]

But...

[he hesitated again. Perhaps saying what are those dreams about wouldn't be a bad idea. He didn’t have to say all of this , of course. And it would in some way to reassure that, yes, it's only a dream, because there's no way he could have a memory like this.]

In those dreams... [ still, it’s hard to even say that and yet his voice sounds so oddly calm.] I'm dying.

[but of course, there is a possibility that it might backfire on him (which is why this is only for Allen to hear)]

[VOICE; filtered] tothelastbreath September 23 2011, 05:14:12 UTC

[Allen doesn't counter Ruca's first statement, because there are times when no amount of blind reassurances will help. The important thing here is that Ruca has decided to talk to him regardless. They can take it from there. So just have a quiet hum of encouragement when you start, Ruca.]

...Dying? [ You called it a memory, though. Reasonably, but not unkindly: ] I can see how that would be upsetting, and I know I'm probably repeating something you're well aware of, but it was just a bad dream. Perhaps it'll fade if you try not to dwell on it?

[VOICE; filtered] adreamminealone September 23 2011, 07:46:31 UTC

[The dying part wouldn't be really that upsetting if not the fact that: 1. he was killed and 2. he was killed by someone he trusted the most.

And no, the memories of his past life are going to be following him around regardless if he's dwelling on them or not.

And he is actually trying not to think about them! He's not Asura, that memory shouldn't bother him that much. And yet it does.]

If it only was that easy...

[VOICE; filtered] tothelastbreath September 26 2011, 04:44:11 UTC

I had the feeling it isn't. Did you use to have this problem back home?

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