The joys of being crazed.
It has been a while since I last posted. My time has been spent on other pursuits. I find myself now in need of just an outlet where I am able to ramble on and on.
Topics :
Poly
- Searching for a lover:
One of the things I have been delaying on is actually putting any real effort into finding a sustainable romantic relationship in addition to my wife. My reasons for not pursuing such a relationship are simple. I was unsure how I could / would handle the reality of poly with Stina. I did not feel that getting a relationship of my own would be a smart thing to do until I was sure of my feelings on poly. After several months, several dates, and many talks I am convinced that I am far more confident in our relationship surviving and thriveing in poly.
I must admit that while I did try to pursue a relationship with one girl, it did not work out. I find myself now not with a romantic relationship, rather a playmate. A good friend C. and I have a wonderful understanding. While, I could easily love her, she is not interested in that type of a relationship. Still, we have much fun. C. is the quientessitial everything but girl. She is remarkably open and eager to explore her sexuality and it has been a long, long time since I was able to train a girl.
I must say that I have my doubts as to how long she and I will continue our understanding. For now, I enjoy it.
The difference between a playmate like C. and what I want, a romantic relationship, is simple. It is a matter of type of love. While I have C.'s body, I do not hold her heart. I want to have another partner. Someone long term.
Life
Right now, Life is rough. We are moving again. One of these decades I will renew a lease... or buy a home. We will be moving to Grapevine. We are perpetually on a treadmill of never quite getting enough out of the hole too prevent ourselves from falling back in.
Topics :
Poly
- Searching for a lover:
One of the things I have been delaying on is actually putting any real effort into finding a sustainable romantic relationship in addition to my wife. My reasons for not pursuing such a relationship are simple. I was unsure how I could / would handle the reality of poly with Stina. I did not feel that getting a relationship of my own would be a smart thing to do until I was sure of my feelings on poly. After several months, several dates, and many talks I am convinced that I am far more confident in our relationship surviving and thriveing in poly.
I must admit that while I did try to pursue a relationship with one girl, it did not work out. I find myself now not with a romantic relationship, rather a playmate. A good friend C. and I have a wonderful understanding. While, I could easily love her, she is not interested in that type of a relationship. Still, we have much fun. C. is the quientessitial everything but girl. She is remarkably open and eager to explore her sexuality and it has been a long, long time since I was able to train a girl.
I must say that I have my doubts as to how long she and I will continue our understanding. For now, I enjoy it.
The difference between a playmate like C. and what I want, a romantic relationship, is simple. It is a matter of type of love. While I have C.'s body, I do not hold her heart. I want to have another partner. Someone long term.
Life
Right now, Life is rough. We are moving again. One of these decades I will renew a lease... or buy a home. We will be moving to Grapevine. We are perpetually on a treadmill of never quite getting enough out of the hole too prevent ourselves from falling back in.