Blah!
Been feeling down lately. Been doing some personal reflection lately, hoping to come to accept certain things. I think that's why I haven't been too happy. In fact, I know that is why. It has made me think about certain things that I have been trying to block out of my memory. But hopefully, in the long run, it will help. Plus, I am so sick of people talking about this subject when they have no idea. I wish they could cry themselves to sleep at night, wake up because of a nightmare/flashback crying again, and wake up hoping it was all a bad dream, and then realize, nope, you fucked up...BAD. I wish they could regret something so much that they would think about it constantly, while other people run their mouths about how horrible people like them are. I am just sick of all of it. As much as I would love to talk to someone about it, I wouldn't even know where to start. And I am so sick of hiding it from everyone. I wish it were more accepted, and that there were more support for it. A website here and there just doesn't cut it. But for right now, that is all that I have.