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i haven't updated about the world cup yet. i just don't know what to say. i honestly felt the entire time, from the very first practice rey and i went to watch at las rozas, that we could win this. not in an arrogant way, i just felt it. i was sure of it. i don't know why or how. i'm usually very superstitious and won't even think about such things, i knock on wood constantly and refuse to say anything and have lucky charms and all that. but i felt so sure of this. so maybe that's why it doesn't really feel like an explosion of freaking out because... we did just what i knew we would. and that is not to say i'm not proud because god, i'm so proud. and i'm happy in a way that feels permanent, like something shifted in me and this has all changed me. it just feels right.
i love seeing all the spaniards celebrating. god, i love seeing them that happy. and seeing those boys be that happy, be that absolutely blissful because they had just played the biggest game of their lives and they won. their little boy dreams come true.
i sat in the floor of the basement of my dad's friend who has a huge theatre screen tv and surround sound speakers wearing my spain jersey and wearing my spain flag tied around my neck and my andalucían flag tied around my waist and i watched their dreams come true. and that changed me. seeing iker so overcome with happiness that he needs to curl up, he needs to sink down and close in around himself and weep. seeing jesús navas come on the pitch and change the entire game in literally minutes. seeing all of those boys together and loving each other and supporting each other no matter what. seeing sergio ramos be the happiest he has ever been, seeing the result of his maturation and his discipline and ever-growing wisdom. seeing him having grown into the man we all knew he would, hearing him being called the best rightback in the world which i already knew. :) it's indefinable, my pride in him. it really is.
i can't talk about nando yet. not yet.
i don't know what else to say. i'm just so happy. it's literally all i can think of. they're all i can think of. i've dreamt of them for two nights now. i hope this feeling goes on for as long as possible for them. i hope they know how many people love them, and how many people that have fallen in love with them on this journey.
spain.