it's been awhile...

[adoremoi]

i know i know, it's been a long while.

i haven't felt the need to confide. rather, i haven't felt the need to confide in something unreal. i have been doing a fair job of confiding in people.

this situation, however, must be shared on an impersonal basis.

i feel completely lost.

i just wish he was comfortable enough with himself to come out...

i love him, i think. that's me overshooting it, but i want to overshoot it.

the timing could not be worse, the future plans couldn't be more disparate.

she even calls him son-in-law.

damnit, mom. it hurts.