I never comment on your LJ...yourbelovedMay 26 2006, 13:13:35 UTC
But this post struck me.
I can understand how you feel, I have delt with similar family issues, except for some reason I seem to be overly connected to my family. After every thing they did to me and that they are still doing (co-dependence is a bitch!) I can't seem to love them enough, even to the point of worrying on a daily basis about their health and whether or not they are going to drop dead any moment. It's strange how people deal with things so differently.
I too want to prove myself, and break free of the mold I have been made from (poor, white trash) but I also feel like that isn't the most important thing in the world.. and I question why I have always wanted to do that? To prove myself to myself, or to prove myself to them? I am starting to realize that what is most important is learning from where you have come from and staying true to that part of yourself while growing as an individual apart from the past. It's a delicate balancing act. I find it very hard to do. I have a poor underprivilaged working class family with addictive problems, and I am a straight A student in college with friends whose families have so much money, and such different home lives. Where do I fit in? Somewhere in the middle... I just can't seem to let go of where I have come from...
Anyway, this is long and I am sorry... My point was that I just wanted you to know I somewhat understand your problem.
I can understand how you feel, I have delt with similar family issues, except for some reason I seem to be overly connected to my family. After every thing they did to me and that they are still doing (co-dependence is a bitch!) I can't seem to love them enough, even to the point of worrying on a daily basis about their health and whether or not they are going to drop dead any moment. It's strange how people deal with things so differently.
I too want to prove myself, and break free of the mold I have been made from (poor, white trash) but I also feel like that isn't the most important thing in the world.. and I question why I have always wanted to do that? To prove myself to myself, or to prove myself to them? I am starting to realize that what is most important is learning from where you have come from and staying true to that part of yourself while growing as an individual apart from the past. It's a delicate balancing act. I find it very hard to do. I have a poor underprivilaged working class family with addictive problems, and I am a straight A student in college with friends whose families have so much money, and such different home lives. Where do I fit in? Somewhere in the middle... I just can't seem to let go of where I have come from...
Anyway, this is long and I am sorry... My point was that I just wanted you to know I somewhat understand your problem.
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