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First of all, if you decide to read this, please don't tell me how pathetic I am, because I already know. I'm not looking for a pity party, I just need to express myself. Secondly if you read all of this, I appreciate you.
First of all, my mother is getting re-married in less than a week. I should be happy and what not, right? Psh oh so wrong. I mean my mother is happy and that's what matters to me. I mean it has been at least five years since my mother and father got divorced and both are so happy. It's weird because I love my step-mom to death. She is probably one of the sweetest people ever. But my soon to be step-dad is not so sweet. He has all these rules and I swear my sister and I do all of the house work. He's a nice guy don't get me wrong but just something about him irks me. Something is just a bit off. Nothing I can do about it though. I just have to deal. It's not like I'm going to be in the house much longer in the first place. I'll be off to college and what not so I'm over it, for the most part.
Secondly, my sister is on my last freaking nerve right now. I honestly need to get away from her, far away from her. I am pretty much with her ALL day EVERY day unless her or I have plans, which isn't very common. I am so sick of her that its ridiculous. I mean, she is my sister and I love her, but right now I don't. She thinks she's all tough and what not because she's bigger than me, and stronger than me, so she gets this idea in her head that she can try and get away with everything. I keep telling her one of these days she's going to cause me to snap and I'm going to tear her up, but she just laughs. So I'm like whatever violence isn't the answer and thats now how I handle things. But enough about her.
Finally I am starting to stress about college. I've yet to decide what I'm going to major in and what collge I want to attend. Whether I want to go somewhere like LCC for two years then transfer out to a University. Plus I still have to worry about things like scheduling my senior pictures and what not. I have way too much on my plate right now and I honestly just want to get away from everyone, my family, my friends, just everything. I want to go somewhere, where I can just be alone and think. But I can't. I've got to stay here, and that sucks. :-[