AHHHH!!
Its been a while since Ive actually updated so here it goes......
Ive been stressed out a lot lately and argueing A LOT with my mom. She's constintly on my ass about work, school, money, and cleaning around the house. I know shes prolly right about most of it but geez.. Im still growing up and wanna have my fun so chill the frick out if I wanna go out and have so damn fun. Im gonna be able to give you money for my bills and stillbe able to have fun. And the whole thing with school and the insurance thing... Its impossible for me to take classes FULL TIME during the summer. They are all blow off classes or shit Ive already taken and if Ive made it this far w/o getting caught then Im sure 2 more months isnt going to be any harm. I feel like Im ALWAYS ALWAYS getting bitched at about shit and like they never go down on my brother baout shit bc hes so damn perfect with his life. Its rare if I EvEr hear them bitch at him about something. Whenever something goes wrong .. who do they go after..ME of course. Im so freakin sick of it. One day they are just going to push me to the edge and I dont know what Ill do. I feel so stressed out to make eevryone around me happy. I feel like when I have one person happy, then there has to be someone else that is pissed off at me or soemthing to go wrong. Lately people are changing and I dont know what to do about that either. Im losing touch with some really good friends and I dont know what the deal is with that. There is just so muh shit that I wanna get off my chest and be relieved about but theres no where for me to go and actually feel good about myself. Ive been sick for the past week and my health prolyl sucks. Im disgusted with my body and who I am. I hate myself for getting like this and I wish I could just close my eyes and everything would go away. Theres just soo much shit I hate about my life and there are few things I am content with. I dont know who I can just sit and talk to about things bc everyone has different opinions on what to do and Ahhh its just frustrates me. And Im sure no one is even going to read this or care about what it says.. which is also frustrating as well. I mean I know its good to vent and I liked having this thing before bc people would actually write back but now its like its nothing. I want someone to at least respond and say something like "Jenna your stupid, I hate you" Something so that I know that someone actually cares to read this at all. I dont know what to do anymore or what to say so I guess I'll jsut end this now and if you care to respond.. wow, awesome.. and thanks in advance!