Feb 21, 2005 15:05
back in year 10. me, richard edmunds and daniel parkinson were all good friends, we used to go down to the park in the centre of mytholmroyd every lunch. One day we discussed that we should all aim to lose our virginity by the end of 6th form and before university.
Now with me being the only one going to university now it was a silly idea back then. I was the favourite to lose mine first as i was a nice person, i was and i aint been arrogant but i was better looking than the other two...
Now Richard Edmunds has been scoring more times than Andy Johnson and Daniel Parkinson cant have sex due to summat or other in a little accident which involved his girlfriend... i aint even lost my virginity yet... puts things into prespective dont it. I aint lost it because i'm waiting for someone special...
2 years ago, if i had said that, girls would have thought it was sweet, now they would just think its an excuse for not being popular...
To lose my virginity at 18 would be what i was hoping for... to lose it at 19 is a bit on the late side.
i was 17 when i had my first proper girlfriend, 19 to lose my virginity... what the hells going on there!
I've got no hope with Iona... And Leanne in the end said the Valentines card was sweet but never followed owt up... The two most perfect girls i know, i cannot have.
It's time to really try elsewhere... I wasted a year and a half on that bitch called beth, although i learn't a heck of a lot, none of it is any useful... I need to look at my options, who's around? who would i be good with... one thing i dont want is to lose my virginity in a meaningless way... just would like to lose it to someone i really like and before i'm 19!
If i really wanted i could lose it tonight... i could ring up my ex and arrange something, i could go out and about and see a drunken lass in hebden and get her to go with me... but i dont want that... thats just not me
in these dark days its hard to possitive as there is little to be possitive about... but i can remain hopefull... and try to stick it out as best i can... i know i'm a minger, but so are my two friends... and if they can do it... so can i!