Alexander Payne
I just ended all communication with Alex, it was really time it happened...Just how I thought he didn't give a shit, cept he'll have to find sum1 else to moan to know. but he's missing out....I can't just, anything anymore...
I know he was holding me back : I lost my feelings 4 him along time ago, but it's like somthing was just hangning on, somthing was getting in the way of moving on tottaly coz he was still in my life, but while he was still in my life it was a total waste of time...I'm currently deleting him of my computer and that will be the end of it, none of my lyrics are about him anymore...And the ones that were have been re-written, I am tottaly removing him from my brain, call it detoxing...It's kinda strange in some ways, how I don't even miss him, I don't want him...I don't even like him, and I just feel like I wasted so much time, time I want to make up 4, with a guy who deserves me more, even if its just 4 sex...I don't care...I could die without ever doing anything sexual again, as long as the person is like....There, with you in the room...
On other fronts, I also consitently row with Brendan, which is just pissing me off at this stage, coz I have so much respect for the guy, and he treats me like a total doll, I think being friends with him is pointless at this stage coz, let's face it, me and him have nothing in common, and don't even get on anymore...I always feel on the spot, being judged...I've also cut Jack out of my life...I just want a new life...
I'm not going to feel held back anymore...[x]
I know he was holding me back : I lost my feelings 4 him along time ago, but it's like somthing was just hangning on, somthing was getting in the way of moving on tottaly coz he was still in my life, but while he was still in my life it was a total waste of time...I'm currently deleting him of my computer and that will be the end of it, none of my lyrics are about him anymore...And the ones that were have been re-written, I am tottaly removing him from my brain, call it detoxing...It's kinda strange in some ways, how I don't even miss him, I don't want him...I don't even like him, and I just feel like I wasted so much time, time I want to make up 4, with a guy who deserves me more, even if its just 4 sex...I don't care...I could die without ever doing anything sexual again, as long as the person is like....There, with you in the room...
On other fronts, I also consitently row with Brendan, which is just pissing me off at this stage, coz I have so much respect for the guy, and he treats me like a total doll, I think being friends with him is pointless at this stage coz, let's face it, me and him have nothing in common, and don't even get on anymore...I always feel on the spot, being judged...I've also cut Jack out of my life...I just want a new life...
I'm not going to feel held back anymore...[x]