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[adonais_child]

soooooo. I havent written in a while...

Ive been really busy I went out on friday and sat, night and did homework all day monday...

its the most Ive ever studied in my life and I feel proud of myself. now, I must not lose that I need to keep going and do well.
I keep getting scared that Im going to fall behind in one of my classes.

there are a lot of things happening in me all at the same time. I need to pray hardcore.

for summer, for my mom, for my sister, for the rest of my family, for my friends at home Im really worried about them, for school, and for finding a church.

Im let God work through me on a lot of these things.

I want them to understand that the reason I give the advice I do is because I love them and Christ. I dont want them to feel Im judging them, but I want to keep them accountable. I dont want them to lose their place near Christ because of their foolish actions on earth. maybe it would be easier if I was near, but Im not, and God doesnt want me to be.
I wish they could understand me, I wish I could understand them.
all I want to do is help. Serve Christ, and teach them what they dont see themselves...

I love you I love you all.
I wish you understand.

God. help me.