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I'm kinda weird right now, and in tears, Its been almost 6 years since a girl has held my hand and told me how great of a guy I am. I'm so scared i'm going to do something wrong. Its been so long since someone has been able to make me feel really good about myself. My last girlfriend couldn't even do that in fact did the opposite, I fucking miss Niccy already and it hasn't even been 12 hours. With all the bullshit I've been through over the years I've always thought Danielle was going to be the only one to ever make me feel special, I'm on fucking cloud 9 everytime I talk to Niccy over the phone, and I'm always the one having to let her go cause I have to sleep. I really do NOT want to mess this up, In such a short period of time I felt so much for someone, its been years since its been like this, she even tells all her freinds about me, and how great I am. I was fucked up and had some efedrine yesterday and made me feel awefull in the head, and nervious I hope she can understand, but if shes who I'm thinking she is she will. I want to have her in my arms soooo bad right now. Shit, not even a month ago I went from wanting to slice my wrists, so constantly being on cloud 9, she truely makes me feel better about myself, and noone has really been able to do it so much in a very very long time. I hope so see her today, I want to bring her flowers and ask her to be my girl.