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it's been a long time since i've last updated. the usual has been about, swimming and what not. this guy robert from north carolina came out to try out our team. nice guy, quiet but then again i would be too around a bunch of people i didn't know. don't know if he is going to come down and swim with us.
currently i'm reading the summer assignment, damn it's long. i just want to get it down before sectionals in two weekends, that way i feel like i've accomplished something. other than that life is its usual normalness. i know there are plenty of things i could/should be doing and yet i still do other things of lesser value. i still haven't figured out about band, i know i'm just avoiding it hoping the whole situation will just clear up; ofcourse this will have the complete opposite affect.
what i want to know is where do people find the faith in future when they have to make sacrifices. where does that optimism come from? i should have it, i believe everyone has the same capabilities of exploiting these virtues, i just simply can't find where mine are. the good news is i'm growing closer to finding it, i think i'm heading down the right path. i know it isn't going to be easy, but if it were easy, it wouldn't be worth it; nothing that is easy is worth it in the long run. if you have to fight for something the bond between you and that certain principle or object becomes stronger; an invisible strength that all thrive off of. yeah i'm doing all right.
got to see ashley the other day, man i miss having her. she seriously is my other half, can read me like a book. it's amazing how connected i feel around her, like she is the one person i don't have to explain any of my feelings to; she simply knows just by looking at me. heck its comforting just being with her, we don't even have to talk and i feel happy and ok, relaxed, no stress, no worries. don't go thinking i'm lesbian like avi and sarah (hehe, just kidding), but she is one of my best friends ever in my life.
hannah's surprise party was fun, she is fun to watch so happy and niave. full of laughter and bubbling with optimism. apples to apples was fun, but apparently i have no personality due to the fact that i was losing horribly, oh well. i also got a pair of green converse and a pair of brown and pink hightops; they make me happy. converse in general make me happy. well that is all folks
currently i'm reading the summer assignment, damn it's long. i just want to get it down before sectionals in two weekends, that way i feel like i've accomplished something. other than that life is its usual normalness. i know there are plenty of things i could/should be doing and yet i still do other things of lesser value. i still haven't figured out about band, i know i'm just avoiding it hoping the whole situation will just clear up; ofcourse this will have the complete opposite affect.
what i want to know is where do people find the faith in future when they have to make sacrifices. where does that optimism come from? i should have it, i believe everyone has the same capabilities of exploiting these virtues, i just simply can't find where mine are. the good news is i'm growing closer to finding it, i think i'm heading down the right path. i know it isn't going to be easy, but if it were easy, it wouldn't be worth it; nothing that is easy is worth it in the long run. if you have to fight for something the bond between you and that certain principle or object becomes stronger; an invisible strength that all thrive off of. yeah i'm doing all right.
got to see ashley the other day, man i miss having her. she seriously is my other half, can read me like a book. it's amazing how connected i feel around her, like she is the one person i don't have to explain any of my feelings to; she simply knows just by looking at me. heck its comforting just being with her, we don't even have to talk and i feel happy and ok, relaxed, no stress, no worries. don't go thinking i'm lesbian like avi and sarah (hehe, just kidding), but she is one of my best friends ever in my life.
hannah's surprise party was fun, she is fun to watch so happy and niave. full of laughter and bubbling with optimism. apples to apples was fun, but apparently i have no personality due to the fact that i was losing horribly, oh well. i also got a pair of green converse and a pair of brown and pink hightops; they make me happy. converse in general make me happy. well that is all folks