Large Update on my so called life
I've found the last couple of days very...stimulating? It's one of those words where I hesitate to use as much as possible, mostly because it never quite fits what I try to say, and if it does, another word seems to do the job better. Regardless, on the whole of things, this week has been possibly one of my better times.
I've started back on my diet, much more serious than I have been the past couple of months. Normally I ate leftovers and half a potato, and packed tuna and half a potato for lunch. I didn't exercise at all, and then had the nerve to complain about not losing weight? I found this very stupid of me, and so I have kicked out the potato and leftovers. I have a cup of this healthy cereal, and half 2 ounces of tuna and a 100 calorie pack of nibblies for lunch. I drink lots of liquids, and exercise for an hour when I get home. Or in this case, when I'm done typing this.
There are people in my life who I have let back in my life, and I could not be happier. Kris being the first to come to mind. We lost touch last year due to my connotations towards her. You know how you are what you eat? Well, it's the same way with some of your friends, too. And I couldn't handle having my dislike for some of her friends as baggage on our friendship. No words could express the absolute gratefulness I have for having her back in my life. She's someone I can just sit with and talk about nothing, and have the best time with. The fact that our religions are so different has no influence, because we love each other for who we are. I love not having the uneasiness between us.
Corey is the second and the only one left to mention. We parted ways (also) last year, when I held the longest grudge possible. He opened his mouth when he shouldn't have, about things he shouldn't know, and I couldn't have that breech in my closely knit circle. This was when Lauren and I were still friends though, and my anger for him grew from hers. I'm naturally a pacifist, hence why almost a year is such a long time for me to be mad about anything, especially something so universally insignificant. Over the last month or so, I have let him back in my life, and it's almost...a breath of fresh air? Yes he has certain habits that I still find annoying (quit eating all my FOOD!) but that doesn't make his soul and heart any worse. And that's what I love him for: good intentions, humor, and being himself when every one wants to bring him down.
Other than new human interaction --- Dance Dance Revolution is amazing. I blow off 500 calories a day, and it really has built up my coordination. More than I'd like to think, quite frankly. I can now chew gum and walk at the same time! o_o. Jealous? Yeah, well, ya should be.
Music wise? I'm starting to revise my Greatest Hits album, taking out a few J-rock songs and adding bands like LadyTronand The Pink Spiders. But I have kept the Trax and have no intention of getting rid of them. And D-Union? Amazing. I hope I can get Brey to buy me their CD. If she doesn't want to, I'm sure Mike wouldn't mind. Since he secretly loves me, and all. ^_^
Fronheiser had the balls to not be here but give us our quiz. I studied the hell out of myself for that, when I find out later that the other teachers are letting their students use their unit circles. We had to make 2 copies of ours, but weren't allowed to use it on our quiz? Ridiculous. This lead me to spend have the quiz time recreating the unit circle on the backside of my paper. I really hope I don't fuck this up, I doubt my c+ grade can take it. And the Enviornmental Science test was really easy? I hope I didn't ruin that either, I'm teetering on the B+/A- level, and I could really use that A-.
Perhaps this change in me is because I finally have myself sold on what I want to do with my life. It's an exciting thing, to truly have a strong passion for something. What do I want to do? I want to teach blind children. In Japan. The two things I've always loved (braille and japanese) shoved together into what seems to be my destiny. I am starting to teach myself Japanese (language, not the writing) over the course of the year, and while it's hard, I know I can do it.
I also plan to get applications for Redner's and Chestnut Knoll over the weekend. I need a job. Honestly I don't care if they pay minimum wage, and all that shit. I can't be picky with a job when I need one as much as I do.
Here's a quick funny story. I like to collect things. The paper wrappers of the ice tea bottles we get at lunch being one of them. I have maybe about 50? So I was asking the normal people for their wrappers when Sarter (John, what a silly face), asked the table behind us for their wrappers. When they asked why, I randomly said I wanted to make a dress out of them. Which would be AWESOME, but with my size, a bit awkward. But they loved the idea, and handed all of them over to me promptly. Cody told me that I HAVE to do it now. So that is the plan..sadly.
Nothing else really to report --- except that Alex Bromely is starting to look cuter and more reachable by the moment. I'm finally starting to like who I am, and maybe I can snag his cute little...Mmm.