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So basically my life has gone from shit, to shittier, to the absolute value of shit. But that's alright, I don't really mind it. At the moment, I know my need for a romantic relationship is getting out of control.
I can't describe it exactly...I need someone that I can just cuddle with, ya know? A guy who can come over and pwn me in videogames, then cuddle with me right there in front of the TV. A guy who I can have an intellectual conversation with, and not just nod and smile. Am I asking too much? Am I too much to handle?
Halo. That is all I can say. There is a guy I call Halo at school, and he's really nice to me. He is perfect for me, but I could never even ask him to hang out. I feel like our religious differences put us at a disadvantage immediately. I don't have a problem with his, but he might have a problem with mine. And I'd hate to just...throw away my secret crush so quickly.
And then there is my friend's boyfriend who I had a crush on LAST year, and I was the first he told that he liked her. Oh my, it shattered my heart. They got together over the summer, I suppose, and that's great. But it doesn't mean I don't still like him a bit. The other day in gym, he seemed to be flirting with me, and I don't know what to do. DRAMA.
It just seems to me like the funny kids have to stay funny all the time, or else they aren't that funny. VOTE ME FOR FUNNIEST FEMALE! xD
No blood in my urine today. Tests come back tomorrow, so we'll see whats the deal. I just hope they come back negative, so we can pass this off as something that isn't life-impairing. But I hope they come back positive, too, so I can get it treated. It's either a kidney stone, or nothing. -crosses fingers-
Everyone has been pissing me off lately, and it's frustrating to ME, not to mention everyone I'm not really talking to. D-r-a-m-a, and I hate it. I'd prefer to deal with drama that isn't mine, thank you very much.
Seeing HP on friday with Kris and others. I'm not going with Caitlin, no time.
Off to apply for Kutztown. -crosses fingers-
I can't describe it exactly...I need someone that I can just cuddle with, ya know? A guy who can come over and pwn me in videogames, then cuddle with me right there in front of the TV. A guy who I can have an intellectual conversation with, and not just nod and smile. Am I asking too much? Am I too much to handle?
Halo. That is all I can say. There is a guy I call Halo at school, and he's really nice to me. He is perfect for me, but I could never even ask him to hang out. I feel like our religious differences put us at a disadvantage immediately. I don't have a problem with his, but he might have a problem with mine. And I'd hate to just...throw away my secret crush so quickly.
And then there is my friend's boyfriend who I had a crush on LAST year, and I was the first he told that he liked her. Oh my, it shattered my heart. They got together over the summer, I suppose, and that's great. But it doesn't mean I don't still like him a bit. The other day in gym, he seemed to be flirting with me, and I don't know what to do. DRAMA.
It just seems to me like the funny kids have to stay funny all the time, or else they aren't that funny. VOTE ME FOR FUNNIEST FEMALE! xD
No blood in my urine today. Tests come back tomorrow, so we'll see whats the deal. I just hope they come back negative, so we can pass this off as something that isn't life-impairing. But I hope they come back positive, too, so I can get it treated. It's either a kidney stone, or nothing. -crosses fingers-
Everyone has been pissing me off lately, and it's frustrating to ME, not to mention everyone I'm not really talking to. D-r-a-m-a, and I hate it. I'd prefer to deal with drama that isn't mine, thank you very much.
Seeing HP on friday with Kris and others. I'm not going with Caitlin, no time.
Off to apply for Kutztown. -crosses fingers-