Fuzziness Clouds Reality....so badly
I’ve deff learned that letting this “just happen” and waiting to see “where thing go” is just not good enough for me when it comes to investing time into relationships. It’s also very hard to constantly keep the fight between the heart and the mind under wraps. Sometimes the feelings get so out of control that the thoughts and logistics fly out the window and all that ends up being present is this mush and over spillage of warm fuzziness, and as soon as I move away from the catalysts and back into reality, I go through that “I’m so stupid - what was I thinking - somebody shoot me - I should not be doing this” phase.
Yesterday I finally learned to find a way to let that logic seep in during the moments of warm fuzziness. To let things be known, no matter how uncomfortable the situation is, to silently demand respect for my thoughts, feelings, my body, and my mind. To realize that I will not settle, that I will never compromise, that I will never give in....at least...not under the influence of temporary warm fuzziness.
When I am able to get into my car, and leave the place of warm fuzziness, and drive home without every thinking “I’m so stupid - what was I thinking - somebody shoot me - I should not be doing this," then I will know that it is no longer temporary, that its something that was very much mutually conceived.
Week of September 4, 2006 Horoscope:
This Thursday's powerful Lunar Eclipse takes place in your sign, thereby putting extra focus on you, your emotional needs, and the cold hard reality of your romantic situation. The truth could be hard for tender, romantic Pisces to bear, so you may need to just take a deep breath and deal with the nuts and bolts of a painful situation that you have created for yourself. Everything is coming to a critical climax, and you can no longer hide from your part of the equation. All eyes are on you, so look within yourself, dig up your true feelings, and feel free to express them with every ounce of courage you have. There is no sense trying to hide your emotions any longer, since they are perfectly obvious to everyone else anyway. In many ways, this Thursday's Eclipse is an opportunity for change and growth. A situation has been realized, and now you have the chance to improve it by taking it in a new direction. Keep in mind that this can only happen if you are brutally honest with yourself and the one you love.
Yesterday I finally learned to find a way to let that logic seep in during the moments of warm fuzziness. To let things be known, no matter how uncomfortable the situation is, to silently demand respect for my thoughts, feelings, my body, and my mind. To realize that I will not settle, that I will never compromise, that I will never give in....at least...not under the influence of temporary warm fuzziness.
When I am able to get into my car, and leave the place of warm fuzziness, and drive home without every thinking “I’m so stupid - what was I thinking - somebody shoot me - I should not be doing this," then I will know that it is no longer temporary, that its something that was very much mutually conceived.
Week of September 4, 2006 Horoscope:
This Thursday's powerful Lunar Eclipse takes place in your sign, thereby putting extra focus on you, your emotional needs, and the cold hard reality of your romantic situation. The truth could be hard for tender, romantic Pisces to bear, so you may need to just take a deep breath and deal with the nuts and bolts of a painful situation that you have created for yourself. Everything is coming to a critical climax, and you can no longer hide from your part of the equation. All eyes are on you, so look within yourself, dig up your true feelings, and feel free to express them with every ounce of courage you have. There is no sense trying to hide your emotions any longer, since they are perfectly obvious to everyone else anyway. In many ways, this Thursday's Eclipse is an opportunity for change and growth. A situation has been realized, and now you have the chance to improve it by taking it in a new direction. Keep in mind that this can only happen if you are brutally honest with yourself and the one you love.