all I needed was the love you gave
my throat hurts, I have something swollen in my neck and it hurts in my mouth, throat and ear. I'm not sure what to do about that.
I've been a physical wreck this week, good job me. But I seem to pull it off like I'm fine, I guess that's a good thing.
My denial is officially starting. No, just for everyone's information, my parents are NOT moving in one week and one day. That is a lie and I will punch anyone in the face who says otherwise.
I am having one of those silly times with a boy. It's refreshing and completely unnerving. I'm glad how things have progressed (really not at all) because it's calming. I'm getting back to how I used to do these kinds of things.
I need to hang out in the Atrium more, it's a really gorgeous place. Especially at night, it's dark and probably one of the better places to be.
Thursday I went to the Den and stayed for six and a half hours. I talked to a lot of people, had insane conversations with people and I'm pretty sure I came off as an arrogant bitch, which is for the best because I was destructively drunk and they were trying to get in my pants. I love going on the offensive. I danced and danced to awesomely bad music and Lance and I are completely in a stand off. I will not lose this one because I already lost another one. Justin was a jackass and I got to yell "fuck you" at him, it felt ridiculously good and now I feel better.
Yesterday I saw Kris Demeanor at That Empty Space, it was really amazing. If you ever have the chance to see him, PLEASE do. You will not be sorry. At one point he slithered on the ground under coffee tables and around couches and then rummaged through my bag a little. He was very entertaining. I discovered how much better you feel after having a beer when you're hung over. I didn't actually "discover" it per se, I just felt it's benefits, and now I'm pretty sure that will become more of a staple in my life. Which is terrble and good because I know this next month is going to really take a lot out of me and I feel that alcohol will put it back in?
oh, the musings of an alcoholic in training.
this is going to be a big one.
I've been a physical wreck this week, good job me. But I seem to pull it off like I'm fine, I guess that's a good thing.
My denial is officially starting. No, just for everyone's information, my parents are NOT moving in one week and one day. That is a lie and I will punch anyone in the face who says otherwise.
I am having one of those silly times with a boy. It's refreshing and completely unnerving. I'm glad how things have progressed (really not at all) because it's calming. I'm getting back to how I used to do these kinds of things.
I need to hang out in the Atrium more, it's a really gorgeous place. Especially at night, it's dark and probably one of the better places to be.
Thursday I went to the Den and stayed for six and a half hours. I talked to a lot of people, had insane conversations with people and I'm pretty sure I came off as an arrogant bitch, which is for the best because I was destructively drunk and they were trying to get in my pants. I love going on the offensive. I danced and danced to awesomely bad music and Lance and I are completely in a stand off. I will not lose this one because I already lost another one. Justin was a jackass and I got to yell "fuck you" at him, it felt ridiculously good and now I feel better.
Yesterday I saw Kris Demeanor at That Empty Space, it was really amazing. If you ever have the chance to see him, PLEASE do. You will not be sorry. At one point he slithered on the ground under coffee tables and around couches and then rummaged through my bag a little. He was very entertaining. I discovered how much better you feel after having a beer when you're hung over. I didn't actually "discover" it per se, I just felt it's benefits, and now I'm pretty sure that will become more of a staple in my life. Which is terrble and good because I know this next month is going to really take a lot out of me and I feel that alcohol will put it back in?
oh, the musings of an alcoholic in training.
this is going to be a big one.