this hurts more than anything...
Sometimes, I really think my family thinks I'm just the fuck up, the accident in their lives.
and it's the worst feeling in the world.
Lately, I have become one who wants to be in a family. Start one or something...I look at Dan and His mom's relationship and I yearn for that with my mother. I want that.
I don't want two kids. I want one little boy, my Vega. I want to give him all the love a mother can give and watch as (Hopefully) Dan gives him all the love he wanted from his father. I don't ever want my child to think he's not as good as another one of my children....therefor, I'll just have one.
I don't want him soon. No no no, I'm not ready. I won't be ready for a while....The only thing I'm ready for is my family now to accept me for who I am and what I do...because feeling like a fuck up to the people who should be the closest to me is an awful feeling.
and it's the worst feeling in the world.
Lately, I have become one who wants to be in a family. Start one or something...I look at Dan and His mom's relationship and I yearn for that with my mother. I want that.
I don't want two kids. I want one little boy, my Vega. I want to give him all the love a mother can give and watch as (Hopefully) Dan gives him all the love he wanted from his father. I don't ever want my child to think he's not as good as another one of my children....therefor, I'll just have one.
I don't want him soon. No no no, I'm not ready. I won't be ready for a while....The only thing I'm ready for is my family now to accept me for who I am and what I do...because feeling like a fuck up to the people who should be the closest to me is an awful feeling.