Whoa boy, hold up
So just got an odd text from Gavin....
I posted on my facebook about wanting my crush to come cook for me, right? So I get this text..."Hey i have a question...so i was bord & saw ur fb stat. Am I the person you have a crush on?" I giggle a little, because it's about Kylie and not him, but I reply back "You are one of them."
"ok question then; am i the only 1 ur fuckin or no?"
Uh, what?!
Like, excuse me, really? Yeah, okay, we fooled around a few times. And I am perfectly cool with you asking if you're worried about disease or something (not that he asked the first time if I was clean, which I am). But otherwise, wtf?
I don't know, it seemed so hostile. I don't even consider it "fucking him", I consider it having a fun time with a friend; sex, if you want to put a word on it. Fucking is something you do when you don't care, or if it's really balls-to-the-wall-rough between you and someone you care about. I don't know if that even makes sense, but...
So now I'm more than a little weary. I told him he's the only one I've been with since Sam, and I would let him know if that changed, but it pissed me off. Honestly? We're not together. Who I fuck or don't fuck is my own goddamn business, and unless you're concerned about getting something, you haven't got any right to know. You "fucked" me knowing we weren't together as a couple and there was never any talk of it. You know about Sam, you know how fucked up it left me and that I'm not interested in a relationship right now. So wtf? Why the hell make me feel like a whore when you have no claim over me? And I haven't slept with anyone else anyway!!
Grf!
Yeah...hmph. I don't want to hurt his feelings, but I'm pissed off. He met me at a Gay night club when I was drunk off my ass, we've only hung out a few times, and although our conversations have been close and personal, we definitely didn't bridge into couplehood. I think I'm going to back off for a bit.
Just my rant.
I posted on my facebook about wanting my crush to come cook for me, right? So I get this text..."Hey i have a question...so i was bord & saw ur fb stat. Am I the person you have a crush on?" I giggle a little, because it's about Kylie and not him, but I reply back "You are one of them."
"ok question then; am i the only 1 ur fuckin or no?"
Uh, what?!
Like, excuse me, really? Yeah, okay, we fooled around a few times. And I am perfectly cool with you asking if you're worried about disease or something (not that he asked the first time if I was clean, which I am). But otherwise, wtf?
I don't know, it seemed so hostile. I don't even consider it "fucking him", I consider it having a fun time with a friend; sex, if you want to put a word on it. Fucking is something you do when you don't care, or if it's really balls-to-the-wall-rough between you and someone you care about. I don't know if that even makes sense, but...
So now I'm more than a little weary. I told him he's the only one I've been with since Sam, and I would let him know if that changed, but it pissed me off. Honestly? We're not together. Who I fuck or don't fuck is my own goddamn business, and unless you're concerned about getting something, you haven't got any right to know. You "fucked" me knowing we weren't together as a couple and there was never any talk of it. You know about Sam, you know how fucked up it left me and that I'm not interested in a relationship right now. So wtf? Why the hell make me feel like a whore when you have no claim over me? And I haven't slept with anyone else anyway!!
Grf!
Yeah...hmph. I don't want to hurt his feelings, but I'm pissed off. He met me at a Gay night club when I was drunk off my ass, we've only hung out a few times, and although our conversations have been close and personal, we definitely didn't bridge into couplehood. I think I'm going to back off for a bit.
Just my rant.