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If someone asked me what I got out of high school, what important fact I learned(and I dont mean the cause of WWII, how to solve a polynomial etc.), but rather what essential fact of life I now know, Id have to say that things change. This cant be understated, my life has done a complete 180. Last year alone proved that point(how well can one ever know someone?). This year I've changed...I am truely a different person, I've lost that uncontrolled joy, hope I have for life. Now I can hardly bring myself to stay awake during the day, I sleep after school not only because Im tried but also to escape for a little bit, even if just for 1/2 an hr.
Look at me-Im not that girl, I've never written-never believed!-anything as depressing as that before.
I dont want to pity myself, but I wonder what I have going for me? I thank God for my friends, for they are my saving grace.
Before I was able to rationalize my life, but saying I may not have this, but at least I have a postive attiude and now...I dont even have that.
I dont know where am going w/ all this except Im very sad lately. But I suppose everything seems worse at nite.
Look at me-Im not that girl, I've never written-never believed!-anything as depressing as that before.
I dont want to pity myself, but I wonder what I have going for me? I thank God for my friends, for they are my saving grace.
Before I was able to rationalize my life, but saying I may not have this, but at least I have a postive attiude and now...I dont even have that.
I dont know where am going w/ all this except Im very sad lately. But I suppose everything seems worse at nite.