covert
I probably had one of the weirdest nights of my life last night.
I've started driving, I guess in a few hours it'll be exactly a week since I got my license. I'm starting to think my life is as simple as the things I do and the people I see. Without depth? is what I'm trying to say I think. Or maybe it's just that I can't think clearly enough to analyze my emotional situation, and I'm too scared of making a change. Even if I do, in fact, figure out what's wrong, my head is so far away from here.
I just want to get away. I need a break for myself.
I want to stop posting about how I feel. I want to post about all the exciting things I'm about to do. Posts with pictures of friends, or whatever adventure I had that day. Posts with all the good things in my life at the time, cause when it comes down to it they're all that really matter.
I want to have a crush again. I miss that feeling.
Or better yet I want to be just as happy all alone. One of those kids who loves each day for what it gives. Who love who they are. Who don't need anyone else.
I'm about to make the biggest decision for my next two years.
...and I think I know what it's going to be.
I've started driving, I guess in a few hours it'll be exactly a week since I got my license. I'm starting to think my life is as simple as the things I do and the people I see. Without depth? is what I'm trying to say I think. Or maybe it's just that I can't think clearly enough to analyze my emotional situation, and I'm too scared of making a change. Even if I do, in fact, figure out what's wrong, my head is so far away from here.
I just want to get away. I need a break for myself.
I want to stop posting about how I feel. I want to post about all the exciting things I'm about to do. Posts with pictures of friends, or whatever adventure I had that day. Posts with all the good things in my life at the time, cause when it comes down to it they're all that really matter.
I want to have a crush again. I miss that feeling.
Or better yet I want to be just as happy all alone. One of those kids who loves each day for what it gives. Who love who they are. Who don't need anyone else.
I'm about to make the biggest decision for my next two years.
...and I think I know what it's going to be.