Subjects Are Overrated
So I got a job at KB Toys. Today was my first day. It wasn't bad at all. A lot of standing around and doing nothing which is a pleasant change from my last job. I'd write more about it but I find writing too much crap that isn't my opinion pointless. For a journal thing anyways. So I haven't seen Hillari for a long freakin' time. Seriously...it's been like...a week. That may not seem like a long time for you guys but I don't usually go two days without seeing her. So it's weird. The interesting thing is that I'm not missing her as much as I'd expect. Usually I'd be missing her the third day or so but I'm not. Well, I do miss her but not in the romantic way. You know how when you like a girl and you really want to see her and nobody else? That's how it usually is. Now it's just like, I miss her. You know? Yes, you do. Hopefully I get to see her tomorrow. See, the thing is, I've been grounded lately so I haven't had the chance to see her since she doesn't have a car and can't really come see me. I don't know if she would see me even if she did. I doubt it. But you never know. I hate caring so much about what she thinks. It's horrible. I could understand it if I wanted to date her or something but I don't. I just want to be her friend. But for some reason I really worry about her not liking me as much as I like her. It's weird and annoying. I think about that more than I think about any other single thing. I mean, seriously...
...who talks this much about their best friend? You may be thinking, "You probably just want to date her but you don't know it." But I don't! I think I want an abnormally good friendship. I think that's my problem. I don't want just a friendship, I want us to be best friends. And I don't think you could consider us best friends. I mean, I think she's my best friend. She may or may not feel the same way but if she did, I don't think we could be considered best friends. Not by my standards at least. Maybe if she acted differently we could be but I get this vibe of her thinking she's better than me. And the thing that's annoying is when I compliment her and tell her things like "I miss you" she acts as though she's better than me. She says things like, "You miss me, don't you?" and although I know she's kidding, it seems to me like a halfway kind of kidding. And then on the other hand, when I don't do that kind of stuff she always gives me crap like, "You don't care about me" and "You don't miss me" and what not. It's really dumb. But anyways, I probably should go to bed. Sorry for the uneventful posts as of late, nothing interesting has been happening which isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's just kind of boring. Peace.
...who talks this much about their best friend? You may be thinking, "You probably just want to date her but you don't know it." But I don't! I think I want an abnormally good friendship. I think that's my problem. I don't want just a friendship, I want us to be best friends. And I don't think you could consider us best friends. I mean, I think she's my best friend. She may or may not feel the same way but if she did, I don't think we could be considered best friends. Not by my standards at least. Maybe if she acted differently we could be but I get this vibe of her thinking she's better than me. And the thing that's annoying is when I compliment her and tell her things like "I miss you" she acts as though she's better than me. She says things like, "You miss me, don't you?" and although I know she's kidding, it seems to me like a halfway kind of kidding. And then on the other hand, when I don't do that kind of stuff she always gives me crap like, "You don't care about me" and "You don't miss me" and what not. It's really dumb. But anyways, I probably should go to bed. Sorry for the uneventful posts as of late, nothing interesting has been happening which isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's just kind of boring. Peace.