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i HATE my life.
i hate everything.
im almost starting to hate my mom, as mean as it sounds.
im not even joking. hate is a strong word and i never use it on a friend or family member, so dont anyone say you dont mean it. because im starting to. she is such a bitch, and in general, shes not a nice person.
its funny, because she thinks shes got me all figured out but the truth is, she doesnt know me. she knows about me, but she doesnt know me. my dad doesnt know me too well, but he sure as hell knows more of me than my mom. he actually cares, and even though hes a prick a times i know that he loves me unconditionally, the way it should be. he is a wonderful dad and even though we arent on speaking terms, i love him to death. believe it or not, im actually starting to think that my mom doesnt even love me, even though im her daughter.
things that ill say on lj that are going wrong:
im officially officially LCing gym (losing credit in gym) -- which means i have to appeal to the teacher, then the 9th grade administration and write a 2 page essay on why i shouldnt lose credit. how the fuck do i explain why i skipped 5th period 3 times?! ugh fuck that dyke she can suck it.
im getting terrible terrible grades 3rd quarter-yeah ive been pretty lax about it. and now im grounded this weekend, the weekend i wanted to see all my old friends whom i adore so much. && shopping at m. mall with my girls cant happen cuz im fuckin grounded.
im getting chubby like crazy. gotsta lose the flab to look fab. (cheerin myself up :) )
my parents are 85% sure that they wanna send me to wilson if i have any Cs on my last report card. i will commit suicide if i go there, no fuckin joke and im tellin that to them to. no way am i leaving bcc for fucking WILSON. bcc-->wilson= death.
& erm....the rest is alittle more private.
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