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Man, the job hunt out there is ridiculous =/. It doesn't help that it's January. I got a call from Desert Sun today, but they want someone with completely open availability. I get that it's a buyer's market out there, but it pisses me off that being unavailable nine hours a week because of class limits my job prospects significantly. I also really do want to save up money and buy a car, but it's like other expenses always seem to freaking come up. Not having a car also has a ridiculous freaking effect on my job prospects, I wish Bellingham wasn't so fucking spread out.
I'm also worried than when I do my volunteer training in the summer, I'll lose my hypothetical job or make them very unhappy with me. The training is 40 hours in a month, which is a kind of a lot. I really really really fucking want this volunteer position though, even if I have to wait.
It just really pisses me off that I can't do it now because my sexual assault was less than a year ago. It feels like something he took away from me. UGH.
I have to decide whether or not I want to go to Mexico with a SugarDaddy over Spring Break. I DO want to, but I have so much anxiety about it. I feel weird leaving the country without my parent's knowledge, but at the same time, I'm freaking twenty years old. Cut the cord at some point!
I'm also worried than when I do my volunteer training in the summer, I'll lose my hypothetical job or make them very unhappy with me. The training is 40 hours in a month, which is a kind of a lot. I really really really fucking want this volunteer position though, even if I have to wait.
It just really pisses me off that I can't do it now because my sexual assault was less than a year ago. It feels like something he took away from me. UGH.
I have to decide whether or not I want to go to Mexico with a SugarDaddy over Spring Break. I DO want to, but I have so much anxiety about it. I feel weird leaving the country without my parent's knowledge, but at the same time, I'm freaking twenty years old. Cut the cord at some point!