lost everything
i lost everything that meant anything to me. again.
this time i know its my fault... why the fuck couldnt i just show her i loved her?
i know why. its because i was scared, yes scared. scared of being hurt again, but look at me now.
i fucked everything up and i cant handle this life i live anymore. she means the world to me and i lost her. the first time i lost her was terrible but this? this is the worst feeling in the world. lets put it this way, if i had a fucking gun i would know how to use it for good.
i dont deserve to be happy, and i mean why should i? i completely messed up.i love her so much god. all i asked for was one more chance. one more chance and id know things would be different, but im too late. if i could just show her i truly feel i would and if i just saw her one more time id prove how much i love her. theres nothing worse than losing someone you love and thats why i dont want to be alive. ive lost the one girl i felt truly happy with. sure we had rough times but what relationship doesnt? all i know is this is my fault. its my fault shes gone. its my fault for not showing her how much i loved her.
lord, you know how i feel for her and yet i still have to suffer. i dont want to end up alone and without her i will be. no matter how much shit ive been through for her, she will always be the one. without her im lost and the thought of her gone is unbearable.
if i cant get another chance then whats the point of my life. ive been through hell and back for her and i miss her more than anything. i miss her face. i miss her love. i miss the way we laugh together and make fun of people. i miss her right next to me every night. i miss knowing shes there for me. i miss everything about her. im so sorry for everything and yet again you wont read this but i cant hold it in. im so fucking sorry jeri-marie. you are the best thing in my life and i fucked up. i can only hope and pray i can see her again. i pray to you lord that one day we can be happy again. i love her so much and all i wanted was one more chance.
i cant lose her again, but i am. slowly im losing my love of my life. i may not be certain about many things in life, but i am about her. without her i can barely breath.
please god, i am so sorry. just please let everything be ok.
i cant lose her. if i do... then im done.
with my life.
i love you jeri, please forgive me. please know im always here for you and theres nothing more i care about then you.
this time i know its my fault... why the fuck couldnt i just show her i loved her?
i know why. its because i was scared, yes scared. scared of being hurt again, but look at me now.
i fucked everything up and i cant handle this life i live anymore. she means the world to me and i lost her. the first time i lost her was terrible but this? this is the worst feeling in the world. lets put it this way, if i had a fucking gun i would know how to use it for good.
i dont deserve to be happy, and i mean why should i? i completely messed up.i love her so much god. all i asked for was one more chance. one more chance and id know things would be different, but im too late. if i could just show her i truly feel i would and if i just saw her one more time id prove how much i love her. theres nothing worse than losing someone you love and thats why i dont want to be alive. ive lost the one girl i felt truly happy with. sure we had rough times but what relationship doesnt? all i know is this is my fault. its my fault shes gone. its my fault for not showing her how much i loved her.
lord, you know how i feel for her and yet i still have to suffer. i dont want to end up alone and without her i will be. no matter how much shit ive been through for her, she will always be the one. without her im lost and the thought of her gone is unbearable.
if i cant get another chance then whats the point of my life. ive been through hell and back for her and i miss her more than anything. i miss her face. i miss her love. i miss the way we laugh together and make fun of people. i miss her right next to me every night. i miss knowing shes there for me. i miss everything about her. im so sorry for everything and yet again you wont read this but i cant hold it in. im so fucking sorry jeri-marie. you are the best thing in my life and i fucked up. i can only hope and pray i can see her again. i pray to you lord that one day we can be happy again. i love her so much and all i wanted was one more chance.
i cant lose her again, but i am. slowly im losing my love of my life. i may not be certain about many things in life, but i am about her. without her i can barely breath.
please god, i am so sorry. just please let everything be ok.
i cant lose her. if i do... then im done.
with my life.
i love you jeri, please forgive me. please know im always here for you and theres nothing more i care about then you.