Fuckin' Emo Entry 'cos i came to realise.
Feeling terribly moody now. Think partly 'cos monthly is coming and somehow of work stress?
Yeah, not starting work officially yet.
Training will start on 2nd week of Feb and will go on for about 10 days.
Been at my branch for a couple of days, 3 days to be exact. Stood one side to observe how my colleagues work.
Truly grateful to God for :
- giving me this opportunity to grow & learn;
- the friendly bunch of colleagues;
- posting me near to my home.
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I'm starting to feel partly frustrated as well thus, I've decided to pen it down here rather than telling you.
Cos I won't even know how to tell you.
Even my mom will ask me why i didn't hang out with you anymore.
I will just reply her that you are busy with projects & assignments.
Deep down, I know this is ONLY partly the truth.
Did you realise that all this while i've been neglected ?
Read your tweets and your blog.
I seem to have been forgotten.
Jubeat & Boyfriend are more important now right? Aside that you are busy with schoolwork & projects.
Both of those seem to revolve you more than any other things under the sun.
I've seen you check-in to so many places but where are the places that we are actually out together?
All this while, if i didn't ask, you won't take the initiative to ask for a meetup either.
I kept mum doesn't mean i'm busy, it's just that i can't be bothered now.
Don't tell me you are busy and thinks that i'm also busy so you didn't ask.
To be honest, do you even bother to?
Many times, I wanted to text you but in the end, i guessed you probably maybe won't reply.
Even if it's just a short meetup would be fine & i would be happy.
I was waiting for you to ask all this while, but nothing came.
Not even a sms or a call.
Feeling tired of all these already, really.
The new year greeting card was actually telling you that we have not met up quite awhile and you are still being remembered.
What about me? Am I forgotten already?
I don't think anyone even give a damn about me.
I should probably hide somewhere where nobody can find me.
I'm just someone who will be there when someone needs.
When I need someone? Who's there for me?
Other than that, i don't seem to worth anything.
I feel like a piece of trash.
I'm sure you obviously know who you are. If you don't, then forget it.
Not that i'm feeling moody then i've pen this down.
In fact, this has been bugging me all this while.
I was thinking if I should even type this you-may-not-even-read entry.
i may have been in the wrong here cos i shouldn't have any expectations from you and that i think too much.
Blame it on that i know you too well.
This whole entry may have made you feel sad (or probably nothing at all.) but i don't give a fuck now.
If you are sad, then tell me, who's more sad?
I should fucking stop here, the more i type, the more depressed I am and everybody fuckcare. dont see a point why should I give a daym to myself.
CAN ANYONE RELATE HOW I FEEL?
Yeah, not starting work officially yet.
Training will start on 2nd week of Feb and will go on for about 10 days.
Been at my branch for a couple of days, 3 days to be exact. Stood one side to observe how my colleagues work.
Truly grateful to God for :
- giving me this opportunity to grow & learn;
- the friendly bunch of colleagues;
- posting me near to my home.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
I'm starting to feel partly frustrated as well thus, I've decided to pen it down here rather than telling you.
Cos I won't even know how to tell you.
Even my mom will ask me why i didn't hang out with you anymore.
I will just reply her that you are busy with projects & assignments.
Deep down, I know this is ONLY partly the truth.
Did you realise that all this while i've been neglected ?
Read your tweets and your blog.
I seem to have been forgotten.
Jubeat & Boyfriend are more important now right? Aside that you are busy with schoolwork & projects.
Both of those seem to revolve you more than any other things under the sun.
I've seen you check-in to so many places but where are the places that we are actually out together?
All this while, if i didn't ask, you won't take the initiative to ask for a meetup either.
I kept mum doesn't mean i'm busy, it's just that i can't be bothered now.
Don't tell me you are busy and thinks that i'm also busy so you didn't ask.
To be honest, do you even bother to?
Many times, I wanted to text you but in the end, i guessed you probably maybe won't reply.
Even if it's just a short meetup would be fine & i would be happy.
I was waiting for you to ask all this while, but nothing came.
Not even a sms or a call.
Feeling tired of all these already, really.
The new year greeting card was actually telling you that we have not met up quite awhile and you are still being remembered.
What about me? Am I forgotten already?
I don't think anyone even give a damn about me.
I should probably hide somewhere where nobody can find me.
I'm just someone who will be there when someone needs.
When I need someone? Who's there for me?
Other than that, i don't seem to worth anything.
I feel like a piece of trash.
I'm sure you obviously know who you are. If you don't, then forget it.
Not that i'm feeling moody then i've pen this down.
In fact, this has been bugging me all this while.
I was thinking if I should even type this you-may-not-even-read entry.
i may have been in the wrong here cos i shouldn't have any expectations from you and that i think too much.
Blame it on that i know you too well.
This whole entry may have made you feel sad (or probably nothing at all.) but i don't give a fuck now.
If you are sad, then tell me, who's more sad?
I should fucking stop here, the more i type, the more depressed I am and everybody fuckcare. dont see a point why should I give a daym to myself.
CAN ANYONE RELATE HOW I FEEL?