~Combinations

[adimusk14]

Had to listen to this at least six times, not for the lyrics, just for the feeling...

"I, I saw you there, wanted you there
I, I knew that it was best for me
You brought me back to that place in my heart
I thought was gone, oh so long
I was unhappy now it's gone
And I'm moving on, moving on
I'm moving on

I went for so long
And I was so wrong
And then I met you
And now I can't without live you
And I don't want to
I've done that all my life up till now

Pass the evening, bring tomorrow
How could we know that night would bring us into daylight
Combination all around us
Fill our heads with the love we've been feeling
For time long past

I went for so long
And I was so wrong
And then I met you
And now I can't live without you
And I don't want to
I've done that all my life up till now

All the time, darling now, oh
All the time, now we'll have to make it up
We'll make it up, oh
All the days, darling now, oh
All the days, now we'll have to make them up
We'll make them up somehow
We'll make them up

I went for so long
And I was so wrong
And then I met you
And now I can't live without you
And I don't want to
I've done that all my life

I went for so long
And I was so wrong
And then I met you
And now I can't live without you
And I don't want to
I've done that all my life up to now"

This is not describing my life at the moment but it is about how I feel sometimes.

These are metaphors...

There's no such person that loves Feist songs as I do that would sing them with me and dance to them in a warm, fireplace-lit room. To feel as passionate I am about emotions and closeness and imagination. To bring me back to romance and fleeting moments of love.

I care not to think.

I want to feel.

I have forgotten what these things are. I know them not.

But the question remains, is it foolish to hope for or pursue these things? Or better to ignore this feeling and move on, focus on work and meaningless trivialities, and be dead inside?

Something has to change first. It might have to be me.