tears?
my brother got married in october. he moved around the corner from us with his new wife. i'm off school this week. he and i were supposed to go out to lunch. i was looking forward to it. i miss him. i was excited. i wanted to talk to him about our parents, they've been fighting a lot lately and i just wanted him to listen. i called him this morning to set up a time and place but i had to leave a message on his phone. he just called. he can't make it. enterprise is too busy today, all his vans are going out today b/c tomorrow is valentine's. i don't mind i understand it's not a big deal, but for some reason i just started bawling. i don't know y. i mean we rescheduled for saturday. why am i so upset? it's not like i'm dying and will never see him again. i didn't think i was this stressed. maybe i really do need to go into a hospital just to get my meds adjusted. i can't really afford to miss school but i need to do this. i need to figure out what's going on. this isn't normal. anyway i need to go. i'll see you later.