time for a real entry

[adidaspj18]

from the pages i wrote today:
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often

silence is all that is needed

an embrace

a kiss

no words

just a union of souls

entities intertwined

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when the final blow is delivered

you will find the end

lost again, alone a twin

with no embrace to crawl to

you find yourself empty

when a shiver startles the senses

alert once again

with no one to cling to

you begin to recede

and break the bonds that held true

yet so thin

clutching the pillow with the desire

for a soul to join

it awakens inside

and you don't know what you must do

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as i begin to understand it all

life flips onto a side i was not aware of

new problems surface, new opportunities flash for a second, then hide themselves

with adulthood the transition has become

increasingly difficult

the temptation to forget things

i have not even faced yet

has grown

like a cancer in my chest, it clutches at the moral fiber i hold dear

and all i can do is resist

for as long as i can

so many have taken the alternative,

including the one i love

but i must be strong

someone is depending on me

somewhere

and i can't let them down

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new one just for here:
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i cried today

finally

after all the movies i have seen recently that made a tear come to my soul

after all the sad moments in my life, and those in other people's

after pain for hurting oneself, and hurting another

i cried

and what finally triggered it?

photos of me being happy

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