Hopes Dashed, Spirits Crushed
Well...you know me, Mr. Awkward. So I go camping with Amy Kirwin, her hick boyfriend, Courtney Cruikshank, Ben Windling, Marlijn Van de Campe and Sylvia....I don't need to tell you that I was there for Sylvia. I thought maybe it would be a chance to further the relationship, maybe have some good old fashioned alone time...but as you know I'm also known as Mr. Wishful-Thinker...So I get there after work on Friday and it's all going pretty good. Everyone is having fun including me and Sylvia. We're laughing and joking around. It's all good. Then we get to the campsite and guess what? Adam, Courtney and Sylvia are all in the same tent! Part of me was like, "Hey that's not bad", but another part of me was like, "this is the worst thing ever". I say that because she knows how I feel about her, she knows that I really like her, and we both know what we talked about...about how the feeling is not mutual...and now we're in the same tent? so I start thinking, "what's she thinking?" I have no idea so I forget about it. Before bed Sylvia said that she'd like to go see the sunrise in the morning and a few of us said we'd like to go too, including me. So we set the alarm on my cell phone (5:30) and went to bed (at 1:15). Well that never developed because she went for a walk on her own before I woke up and was missing when I did wake up, which is fine but it was kinda weird how she did that after the whole discussion about the sunrise together...mark this as Hopes Dashed #1. So she eventually comes back but still at this time it's only my tent awake...so we start the fire up again and we wait around for everyone else to get up, but they're lazy and don't. So Sylvia goes back into the tent to lay down and I went in too because I was tired and, well, I like her and want to be with her. So when I went in she was already in her bag and laying with her eyes closed. I got in my bag, facing her and just relaxed. Every once in a while I opened my eyes...I don't know why, I'm Mr. Awkward. So the one time when my eyes were open and i was looking at her, she opens her eyes and we made eye contact. "AHH! PANIC!" the voice in my head said. I shut my eyes like I had just walked in on...NO nevermind. It was too late though, she saw me staring at her...Mark this as Hopes Dashed #2. So everyone wakes up finally and we get back up and Marlijn, Ben and Courtney go home. So that leaves Amy and her BF and me and Sylvia...OK maybe she'll be forced to stick with me so she's not a third wheel...right? We all go to the beach and she goes into the water like a crazy person (it was freezing, like beyond anything tolerable) and I try to go in after her while Amy and boy stay on shore. It's ungodly cold and I can't go any further than my waist. I tried, but she kept swimming farther out. I come back in and she stayed out alone....Hopes Dashed #3. She comes back in eventually and goes and lies in the sun very far away from me and I'm suddenly Mr. Third-Wheel. Now I'm not going to go join her because i had the feeling that it would have been annoying because I was really trying to get close with her and she wasn't giving anything in return. So I respected her desire to be alone and I sat in my chair. Amy's BF goes and joins her and they flirt for a while just like they had been all day. Mark this as Spirits Crushed #1. Amy and I decide to join them both and it was alright, we all layed there "tanning" (burning) and Sylvia gave Amy a massage. Boy and Sylvia flirted some more and I went back to the chairs alone. Hopes Dashed #4, Spirits Crushed #2. I fell asleep for like 3 minutes in the chair and Sylvia went back in the water, this time with what's-his-face, but he was just like me, a coward in the cold water. We left the beach, got ice cream and drove home. I dropped them off, said bye and went home. Another opportunity down the drain because I fail to act. OK that's a rant/summary of my weekend thus far. No advice needed but if you want tell me what you think...