Sweet Dreams are made of this...
So I've had a couple dreams lately, one of which I need to get out so I can hopefully let it go, and the other which was just humorous so I'm gonna share it :)
So the first one was a couple nights ago. I had gotten this letter, it was actually just written on a piece of junk mail and shoved under my door. It was from my ex, Paul. He basically was saying how he fucked up and missed me and wanted me back. Then suddenly he appeared and we were on my couch half cuddling and I told him that he really broke my heart and I don't know why he thought I would take him back. He went on and on about how much he loved me and was sorry about what he did, made a huge mistake, etc. I got up and walked away but as I walked through my house I saw all these little things he left me, like he has done in the past, just silly little things that people might think are stupid, but I always thought were sweet, thoughtful, romantic, etc. And I remember the look on his face, in his eyes, he was sincere. But that is where it ended, I woke up feeling happy, but within a few seconds realized it wasn't real and then I was incredibly sad. I have dreams like this probably once a week - either sweet and happy like this, or the ones I mentioned previously where he is cold and distant. They really shake me up and the feeling lasts for several days. I'm hoping actually writing it out, I can get over it faster.
So onto the dream I had last night, it's a weird silly dream that I don't really remember a ton of the details to so this will be really fragmented. I was at this play with a friend, it was a musical. We were sitting in the back row and really not paying much attention because we were enjoying just talking to each other. And then I have this person grabbing me and pulling me towards the stage - it was Janet Jackson, but she was like white and didn't really even look like her much. Now they pulled the "lucky audience member" (aka me) onto stage and during this show, they're like showing me the songs/dances and teaching me some lines to say and now it's not Janet Jackson, it's Julia Louis Dreyfus (these people are totally random, I'm not even fans of them, though Julia is pretty funny). So I'm on stage making a fool of myself and I'm looking at my friend, who is laughing his ass off, and who can blame him, I was laughing too. But it was a fun time all around. It's nice to have a dream like that after the one I had the night before. I always have a terrible time falling asleep after those and did last night as well, but then had this one so it makes it somewhat better.
So the first one was a couple nights ago. I had gotten this letter, it was actually just written on a piece of junk mail and shoved under my door. It was from my ex, Paul. He basically was saying how he fucked up and missed me and wanted me back. Then suddenly he appeared and we were on my couch half cuddling and I told him that he really broke my heart and I don't know why he thought I would take him back. He went on and on about how much he loved me and was sorry about what he did, made a huge mistake, etc. I got up and walked away but as I walked through my house I saw all these little things he left me, like he has done in the past, just silly little things that people might think are stupid, but I always thought were sweet, thoughtful, romantic, etc. And I remember the look on his face, in his eyes, he was sincere. But that is where it ended, I woke up feeling happy, but within a few seconds realized it wasn't real and then I was incredibly sad. I have dreams like this probably once a week - either sweet and happy like this, or the ones I mentioned previously where he is cold and distant. They really shake me up and the feeling lasts for several days. I'm hoping actually writing it out, I can get over it faster.
So onto the dream I had last night, it's a weird silly dream that I don't really remember a ton of the details to so this will be really fragmented. I was at this play with a friend, it was a musical. We were sitting in the back row and really not paying much attention because we were enjoying just talking to each other. And then I have this person grabbing me and pulling me towards the stage - it was Janet Jackson, but she was like white and didn't really even look like her much. Now they pulled the "lucky audience member" (aka me) onto stage and during this show, they're like showing me the songs/dances and teaching me some lines to say and now it's not Janet Jackson, it's Julia Louis Dreyfus (these people are totally random, I'm not even fans of them, though Julia is pretty funny). So I'm on stage making a fool of myself and I'm looking at my friend, who is laughing his ass off, and who can blame him, I was laughing too. But it was a fun time all around. It's nice to have a dream like that after the one I had the night before. I always have a terrible time falling asleep after those and did last night as well, but then had this one so it makes it somewhat better.