Come on back to the War.
Living and the changes within.
Katie is definitely going to be moving back to Chatham to gather her financial pants and perhaps steady her mind a bit.
Was afraid if she left Toronto she would lose me all together as a room mate, but the plan is thus.
She goes back and saves, come next Spring/Summer she makes her way back to the city and we find an abode to share together.
Until then, I've decided to stay in this place. Have made it clear to Joss that she is not to stay in this place. It's been too much. Tensions have been growing and they're still unresovled. Will most likely remain that way, but there is no need to sort them out at this point.
I put the idea to Devon for him to move in. Along with Derrick and his bird. The scenario would be, Derrick and Maya share the largest room, which they could do most comfortably. Devon would take Katie's room. With the four of us here, while being cramped yes, I imagine could really work if the four of us really work at it. Rent would drop to under $300 each. Wonderful. This would only be temporary. Either until I feel I have the sums of money to make it on my own, or simply move into another apartment with strangers. Though, I would prefer to wait until the former could be actualized. So perhaps, if it does seem to work, I will stay until the lease is up in April. Well, by then, or around then Katie would be ready to come back so hmm?
Though, with this idea, the situation between Devon and I had to be addressed. Do we continue our extra curricular romps? Either way I do not sway with a choice. But he seems to want more of a strictly friends if they were all to move in. No skin off of my back, no tears from my eyes over it. I'm too practical for such things. This is strictly trying to keep myself afloat in the most economical and safe way. We are not dating. Not even seeing each other, which I see as at least attempting to invest emotional attachment to one another which neither of us have done. We are friends before lovers, and we'll never be more than simple lovers so it does not phase me to simply take that factor away.
Besides, I've been feeling more and more asexual anyway, mentally and physically. I don't want to feel as if I'm at the indirect hands of another because of my own attachment. I don't know what it is I've been feeling lately, all sorts I suppose. But there is no room for others and I don't want them anyway.
Nevertheless, he is still pondering over it. This decision rides on him alone really, as Derrick wouldn't care either way, and neither would Maya by that point. I suppose I'll find out by tomorrow evening. Or even tonight as after I've finished this I need to pedal over their to pick up my keys which I left in my pants that he decided to wear today.
On another note...
As I reached the corner of my block I realized it was sectioned off with caution tape and officials vehicles: Police, Ambulance, Forensics..
a woman was stabbed right outside of my front door, and I had to climb up the back way to get into the apartment.
I had planned to just bike to Devon's, but my bike is locked up to a tree right outside the front door and was thus, included in the crime scene. I asked an officer if I was able to take it, but to no avail. "Part of the crime scene, you can't take it, I'm sorry'
It's not your fault Sir. He seemed regretful he could not help.
There is now a dull black trail of what would have been an unknown substance had I not know what had taken place. But I know it's someones blood.
Huh
Katie is definitely going to be moving back to Chatham to gather her financial pants and perhaps steady her mind a bit.
Was afraid if she left Toronto she would lose me all together as a room mate, but the plan is thus.
She goes back and saves, come next Spring/Summer she makes her way back to the city and we find an abode to share together.
Until then, I've decided to stay in this place. Have made it clear to Joss that she is not to stay in this place. It's been too much. Tensions have been growing and they're still unresovled. Will most likely remain that way, but there is no need to sort them out at this point.
I put the idea to Devon for him to move in. Along with Derrick and his bird. The scenario would be, Derrick and Maya share the largest room, which they could do most comfortably. Devon would take Katie's room. With the four of us here, while being cramped yes, I imagine could really work if the four of us really work at it. Rent would drop to under $300 each. Wonderful. This would only be temporary. Either until I feel I have the sums of money to make it on my own, or simply move into another apartment with strangers. Though, I would prefer to wait until the former could be actualized. So perhaps, if it does seem to work, I will stay until the lease is up in April. Well, by then, or around then Katie would be ready to come back so hmm?
Though, with this idea, the situation between Devon and I had to be addressed. Do we continue our extra curricular romps? Either way I do not sway with a choice. But he seems to want more of a strictly friends if they were all to move in. No skin off of my back, no tears from my eyes over it. I'm too practical for such things. This is strictly trying to keep myself afloat in the most economical and safe way. We are not dating. Not even seeing each other, which I see as at least attempting to invest emotional attachment to one another which neither of us have done. We are friends before lovers, and we'll never be more than simple lovers so it does not phase me to simply take that factor away.
Besides, I've been feeling more and more asexual anyway, mentally and physically. I don't want to feel as if I'm at the indirect hands of another because of my own attachment. I don't know what it is I've been feeling lately, all sorts I suppose. But there is no room for others and I don't want them anyway.
Nevertheless, he is still pondering over it. This decision rides on him alone really, as Derrick wouldn't care either way, and neither would Maya by that point. I suppose I'll find out by tomorrow evening. Or even tonight as after I've finished this I need to pedal over their to pick up my keys which I left in my pants that he decided to wear today.
On another note...
As I reached the corner of my block I realized it was sectioned off with caution tape and officials vehicles: Police, Ambulance, Forensics..
a woman was stabbed right outside of my front door, and I had to climb up the back way to get into the apartment.
I had planned to just bike to Devon's, but my bike is locked up to a tree right outside the front door and was thus, included in the crime scene. I asked an officer if I was able to take it, but to no avail. "Part of the crime scene, you can't take it, I'm sorry'
It's not your fault Sir. He seemed regretful he could not help.
There is now a dull black trail of what would have been an unknown substance had I not know what had taken place. But I know it's someones blood.
Huh