Rumors
Where do all these people come from? Suddenly, so many people I knew in high school are coming out of the woodwork and friending me on facebook, IMing me on AIM, and otherwise talking to me as though no time had passed since I left Las Cruces. Pay no mind to the fact that now, I'm the physical manifestation of everything I kept secret from them--everything I lived in fear of them discovering! No, they come out of nowhere with their, "Hey Sonia! How's it going? How's college treating you?" I'm sick of it!
Where were they at any point in my transition? They get to sit back, and pretend like they know me--but this is the first time they've ever SEEN me. So where do they get this sense of familiarity?
It's unfair. Last night, talking to one of my old high school "friends," I found out about all the rumors that were going on about me. There were rumors that I was a gay guy, which I knew about. But, other's thought I was a girl at the time. It's just so frustrating to know that I repressed my feelings and lived in fear, all to protect myself from these very rumors. I could have been me in high school--evidently, everyone expected it. What's worse is the rumors are still circulating. since coming to Washington, so many people starting finding me on myspace; but, instead of talking to me about it, they go around telling people all about me, and the changes in my life, as though they knew everything involved in it.
When did all this become the topic of casual conversation? How dare these people pretend like they know me? It makes me want to scream.
Where were they at any point in my transition? They get to sit back, and pretend like they know me--but this is the first time they've ever SEEN me. So where do they get this sense of familiarity?
It's unfair. Last night, talking to one of my old high school "friends," I found out about all the rumors that were going on about me. There were rumors that I was a gay guy, which I knew about. But, other's thought I was a girl at the time. It's just so frustrating to know that I repressed my feelings and lived in fear, all to protect myself from these very rumors. I could have been me in high school--evidently, everyone expected it. What's worse is the rumors are still circulating. since coming to Washington, so many people starting finding me on myspace; but, instead of talking to me about it, they go around telling people all about me, and the changes in my life, as though they knew everything involved in it.
When did all this become the topic of casual conversation? How dare these people pretend like they know me? It makes me want to scream.