it's 3 am
It's 3am and i am wide awake. why? i have no idea...but i took some more vicks, so hopefully i'll be out for another 6 hours. Being sick sucks, but oh well. I'll live :-X lol
So, yeah....nothing too exciting has been happening this week. Monday...i woke up to a really scratchy, sore throat and a really weird im from aaron's ex...shandy...saying he cheated on me over the winter which is a lie b/c aaron wouldn't do that to me...and if it were true, that meant she cheated on her bf also. idk, she's messed up. So...i im'd aaron asking who that person was...he ended up being in mt. p for the Micheal moore thing and he had come over here about 10 and we talked until my class at 11. then he came back at 1..and we talked more. He said he is going home to wisconsin and working at some place his mom got him hooked up with. Then, next semester he is coming back here to central..not because of me. but for school. So, as far as i know, we are friends. That's what i said i wanted to be and he hates the fact, but if something is going to happen, it will happen.
So, that was my monday.
Yesterday, well, i went to all my classes...found out i have many points that are stil left in the semester for all my classes...so i can stop fretting about doing bad on hw quizzes and my first exam...there are many points that can make them up...i just have to study harder and what not...idk what my problem is...maybe i'll turn off my computer...too much of a temptation? idk. lol.
But...i have a doctor's appt at 12:30 today...hopefully they will tell me it is just a head cold and if i need antibiotics...let's have them so i can start feeling better. lol. i have an exam in BLR today...not lookin forward to it...but what exam do i look forward to?
I realized yesterday...i'm just going to pick a major or two and a minor or two and sign it by next week or the end of this week. get it over with. I don't know what my delay is. What am i so afraid of? it will be one less worry on my mind.
I was also thinking about why I chose CMU over all the other colleges and i think my main reason was because i wanted to escape, it was an easy escape. Central wasn't too big and intimidating as U of M or MSU, it didn't take much to get in, basically, i think i took the easy way out...but did i really make the right choice? Sure, i love the friends i've met...but why did i really pick CMU? I'm sure if i would've applied at other colleges, i may have gotten scholarships...maybe better ones...I may have done better in my classes my freshman year of college...idk. What's done is done...time to push forward and decide my life best i can. Wondering about regrets will get you no-where in life.
But, i guess i should attempt to sleep, again and stop pondering useless thoughts.
So, yeah....nothing too exciting has been happening this week. Monday...i woke up to a really scratchy, sore throat and a really weird im from aaron's ex...shandy...saying he cheated on me over the winter which is a lie b/c aaron wouldn't do that to me...and if it were true, that meant she cheated on her bf also. idk, she's messed up. So...i im'd aaron asking who that person was...he ended up being in mt. p for the Micheal moore thing and he had come over here about 10 and we talked until my class at 11. then he came back at 1..and we talked more. He said he is going home to wisconsin and working at some place his mom got him hooked up with. Then, next semester he is coming back here to central..not because of me. but for school. So, as far as i know, we are friends. That's what i said i wanted to be and he hates the fact, but if something is going to happen, it will happen.
So, that was my monday.
Yesterday, well, i went to all my classes...found out i have many points that are stil left in the semester for all my classes...so i can stop fretting about doing bad on hw quizzes and my first exam...there are many points that can make them up...i just have to study harder and what not...idk what my problem is...maybe i'll turn off my computer...too much of a temptation? idk. lol.
But...i have a doctor's appt at 12:30 today...hopefully they will tell me it is just a head cold and if i need antibiotics...let's have them so i can start feeling better. lol. i have an exam in BLR today...not lookin forward to it...but what exam do i look forward to?
I realized yesterday...i'm just going to pick a major or two and a minor or two and sign it by next week or the end of this week. get it over with. I don't know what my delay is. What am i so afraid of? it will be one less worry on my mind.
I was also thinking about why I chose CMU over all the other colleges and i think my main reason was because i wanted to escape, it was an easy escape. Central wasn't too big and intimidating as U of M or MSU, it didn't take much to get in, basically, i think i took the easy way out...but did i really make the right choice? Sure, i love the friends i've met...but why did i really pick CMU? I'm sure if i would've applied at other colleges, i may have gotten scholarships...maybe better ones...I may have done better in my classes my freshman year of college...idk. What's done is done...time to push forward and decide my life best i can. Wondering about regrets will get you no-where in life.
But, i guess i should attempt to sleep, again and stop pondering useless thoughts.