You were wrong when you said "everythings' gonna be alright."
All I want to do is sleep and eat and I hate going to work cause it means that I have to get out of bed. I think I'm getting depressed. I should be excited right now, right? Getting married in a week and a half so i should be antsy and floaty. I don't know. Big fight with the boy™ last night. I hate bars. Especially when I'm playing designated driver and we're there for 7+ hours. I think that since everything is getting really close and I haven't paid for a single thing and I haven't even settled on a venue (all of the places I like are little vegas-style chapels so most of them don't even require appointments or whatever) and I think my little brain is frying. I don't know. Sometimes I think it would be better to not get married, but I'm always okay with the idea until a little while beforehand. Like, I just freak out or something. Getting married is a big deal to me, and it's scary because I look at it like this is it, it's a forever type thing. So that whole self-destruction thing I still do so well is coming back full force. I don't know if that's it or I really have some weirdo objection to it all. I don't know, but I'd better be certain one way or the other by next Friday.