Think of....
I had a semi-good day at work yesterday. I love my Sandy & my Emily & my Lily <333 they're the best people at my work. Always happy to see eachother [and me]. So I am going to write Emily and Sandy notes next time I work with them [I already wrote Lily 4 or 5] heehee :B
I saw Brittany when I was walking back to work from hotdogonastick.
Sarah said hi to me when I was doing the fitting rooms.
Heather and Cayle visited me and we hung out for a while on my 10 minute break.
did i ever mention that forever 21 has a thing that scans your thumb to clock in??!! pretty james bondy, I'd say.
last night heather and I went to starbucks, I brought Vivi, we met russell and jessika there. pretty much it about that.
heather and I took josh some toilet paper to his condo. hahah. after that, we went to Denny's.
at Denny's I saw my old old friend Nina. she works at mac :o
maybe i could get a discount or a lil' somethin' somethin'.
Heather and I talked for like, two or three hours in my car. we talked about all sorts of things. it was a good talk, i suppose. somethings about what she was telling me kinda made me feel weird... like how some of my friends [jesse, jessica, mark, josh, cayle & even heather] don't want to hang out with me anymore just because of one night after a long day of work and a prolonged headache, i wasn't being chipper enough.
and when i got home from heather's house. i cried.
not for myself though. thats the strangest part.
i cried for all of them because they are all so sad to me. not like
"utterly pathetic" sad. but just--- really, really sad.
i don't think i'll ever be able to explain it.
but... i thought about each of their lives and their situations and all i could do is just cry about it. because i would hate to live like that.
it must just sound arrogant.
but please don't think of it like that.
it's more like sympathy-- and forgivingness of how they act & what they say.
i'm not saying how they act is logical to me, but... ah. it's too hard to explain.
anyway.
tonight was a night at heather's house that i wasn't supposed to be invited to.
she wanted me to come, but... i don't think i am.
i'll wait until i am invited because my friends want me to be there.
not to prove some point to them.
besides, tonight allie and roger and mari and geoff all want to be with me.
allie even has a present for me <33
it just sounds like such a better, more refreshing alternative to the negativity.
i can't wait :]
i'll just appologize to mark over the phone.
I saw Brittany when I was walking back to work from hotdogonastick.
Sarah said hi to me when I was doing the fitting rooms.
Heather and Cayle visited me and we hung out for a while on my 10 minute break.
did i ever mention that forever 21 has a thing that scans your thumb to clock in??!! pretty james bondy, I'd say.
last night heather and I went to starbucks, I brought Vivi, we met russell and jessika there. pretty much it about that.
heather and I took josh some toilet paper to his condo. hahah. after that, we went to Denny's.
at Denny's I saw my old old friend Nina. she works at mac :o
maybe i could get a discount or a lil' somethin' somethin'.
Heather and I talked for like, two or three hours in my car. we talked about all sorts of things. it was a good talk, i suppose. somethings about what she was telling me kinda made me feel weird... like how some of my friends [jesse, jessica, mark, josh, cayle & even heather] don't want to hang out with me anymore just because of one night after a long day of work and a prolonged headache, i wasn't being chipper enough.
and when i got home from heather's house. i cried.
not for myself though. thats the strangest part.
i cried for all of them because they are all so sad to me. not like
"utterly pathetic" sad. but just--- really, really sad.
i don't think i'll ever be able to explain it.
but... i thought about each of their lives and their situations and all i could do is just cry about it. because i would hate to live like that.
it must just sound arrogant.
but please don't think of it like that.
it's more like sympathy-- and forgivingness of how they act & what they say.
i'm not saying how they act is logical to me, but... ah. it's too hard to explain.
anyway.
tonight was a night at heather's house that i wasn't supposed to be invited to.
she wanted me to come, but... i don't think i am.
i'll wait until i am invited because my friends want me to be there.
not to prove some point to them.
besides, tonight allie and roger and mari and geoff all want to be with me.
allie even has a present for me <33
it just sounds like such a better, more refreshing alternative to the negativity.
i can't wait :]
i'll just appologize to mark over the phone.